On my phone when I go to lunch. There is too much to remind me of S. Songs like Harvest Moon by Neil Young. Slow dancing in his living room to it. Laying on his shoulder… I put a lot of Neil on after that. Van Morrison, Someone Like You. Always thought that was about S.
Also lots of music that brings back the pain, and I don’t want to revisit that either. Silver Spring by Fleetwood Mac, Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd, Diamonds and Rust by Joan Baez.
I think I better switch to Pandora. Less chance of a trigger. Struggling a little today. First time all week, probably because it’s a long weekend, and once again I’m alone. Dammit. I’ll be ok.
I’m posting this from my phone. Don’t know if the YouTube link will display.
learningtolivelikewaterblog.com 
Hang in there my friend, you are doing really well, it is hard, don’t give up… lots of hugs M.
I have a feeling he deleted my phone number, (he’s done that before) and maybe is not reading my blog now. Just a feeling, no hard evidence. So if I can hold out and make plans with friends I’ll be ok.
Sorry to hear you’re struggling. You’re doing amazingly well, so a little backslide sometimes is to be expected.
Music is such a trigger… I love music, but haven’t been able to listen to Spotify for over 2 weeks. It’s great when new songs come into my world as they have no association to him, but I still can’t really ‘listen’ because often the lyrics will set me off again…
One moment at a time – remember, that’s all that matters.
You’ve got this Deb, honestly you have ā¤
I always feel better, stronger after I put it out to the universe. Regaining my equilibrium. š