Second Full Moon Sound Bath

We held our 2nd free soundbath at the beach last night. It was a perfect night,around 70°, light breezes off the water, heron and egrets walking along the sand. The sunset was beautiful. I coulden’t have asked for more. I took a couple pics of some of our attendees getting settled in, while the sun was setting over the Gulf of Mexico.

We had 35-40 people at the soundbath tonight. I love how people stop and talk to us, and ask questions as we set up, and tune up the gongs and bowls. I love how playing the gongs et al with Dan becomes an amazing, intimate experience, where we are connected, feeling each others vibes and feel the level elevate as the flow between us spreads out into those who are participating. I love how people are doing Tai Chi, and Yoga as they bathe in the vibrations.

We had a new drum tonight. It was an early Christmas present for Dan, a 16” buffalo drum. It has an amazingly deep resonant tone, and the vibration you feel standing next to it as he plays it is extremely strong. At one point he walked through the crowd playing it, and played it over each persons head.

When it was over, person after person whom I didn’t even know, came up and hugged me, and Dan, and told us how amazing an experience it was, and wanted to know where and when we will do it again. A few people were asking if we had a venue where we do it regularly, because they want it more than once a month. That’s what we hoped would happen, the formation of a sound healing community of like-minded people.

It’s a real thrill, and honor, to facilitate this gathering of people who are focused on their own healing, be it emotional, or spiritual, or sometimes even physical. I will leave you with a comment I got on a post I put up last night, thanking everyone for coming and making it so special. The fact that this person is a stranger to me, meaning I wouldn’t know them if I passed them on the street, is just heart-warming.  Though, I have a feeling that the many people there I didn’t know will not remain strangers to me for long.

What a profound and transformative experience for me. Thank you for providing the space and presence for spiritual alchemy to occur.” – Jill Rice

SoCS: Two Tales of Shade (and Two Haikus)

SoCS (Stream of Consciousness Saturday) prompt:  Shade

Shadows in the shade
Hid the lone soul lurking there
Lost in his self-hate.

Pulling the shades down and darkening the room even more, she shaded everything she said to him with shade until the misdeeds were finally acknowledged. Then she opened the shades once again, and let the light in. The light was so bright, it dispelled the shade, and looking around she saw that the shade, upon leaving had dispelled him as well. He was nowhere to be seen in what had been a shaded room where he thought he could hide.

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Shading her vision
She saw his beautiful soul
The blessing of love.

She pulled the shades and turned on her warm Tibetan salt lamp. She turned from the nightstand and saw him, cast in the rose glow of the lamp. He leaned into her, the shadows cast by the lamp laying across his warm and loving face, as he held her head in his hands, gently kissing her. While the darkness was shaded by the shades, there was no shade between them. Their passion lit the night, as their shadows danced on the ceiling, the shades shutting out the world.

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Please visit Linda G. Hill’s site for all the rules if you’d like to participate in the Stream of Consciousness Saturday prompt:  https://lindaghill.com/2019/11/29/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-nov-30-19/

 

 

 

 

Choosing Light Over Darkness

A woman who doesn’t know me at all, or Dan, left an ugly comment on an event post I shared to a local group about our sound healing. She called it “bull crap”. Why? I have no idea. Why would someone who doesn’t know either one of us, and has never attended one of our sessions, be bad-mouthing us? For that matter why would anyone cast aspersions on something they know nothing about, have never experienced, while others who HAVE been there, have heard us, have stayed through the cold and wind to hear us and be part of it, have had nothing but good things to say? “A massage for the soul” was my favorite comment.

I am stumped as to what drives people like this. Perhaps they are deflecting their own anger at themselves toward us. And who knows what that is about? I don’t, and don’t really care. I’ve decided to just ignore people who are trying to start up senseless drama over something that helps people, a lot of people, to reconnect with their true selves, to heal emotional trauma. One attendant last time came up to me after, and said, “I don’t know what just happened to me. I’ve been to a lot of things, experienced a lot of healing modalities, but nothing like this. Do you do private sessions?”  (Yes, we do.)

I’ve taken a lot of courses in sound healing and become certified. I’ve read a lot of books about it. I’ve tried to learn as much about how it works, why it works, how to bring out different tones, how to help people shift from a dark place into a lighter one. How to help them, through vibrational sounds, to get in touch with their true selves.  I’ve even begun to delve into the world of quantum physics, for a greater understanding of how vibration in all things, affects us all.

I understand that some people don’t want to go there. Some people like, actually like, to tear down others to make themselves equal, in their own minds, while others will look for avenues to raise their consciousness, not avenues to lower it. Some people prefer to stay in the darkness, hiding from everyone. Others do everything they can to work their way into the light.

So, to those who want to spread their darkness in the world, project their anger and dissatisfaction with their own lives, don’t come to a sound healing. It might make you crazy, as the light that exists in all of us, is amplified by the vibrations, and chances are that a soul that’s been hiding in darkness can’t win that battle.

Not for a second does it affect those of us who practice extending love and compassion. I feel sorry for those who call sound healing “bull crap” or calling those of us who have invested time and effort to be able to facilitate the healing “frauds.” The fraud is the one who pretends to know while he or she know nothing of which he speaks. But, the sad part is that they put up a wall between them and others.

Someone asked the woman if something had happened to make her respond with such negativity. She did not reply. I replied, and told her that it was just a matter of someone speaking about that which they know nothing of. I invited the questioner to the next sound healing, explained that lots of people went and loved it, and that we’d love her to attend the next session. She responded positively, and the woman who called us “bull crap” seems to have disappeared.

So why? I guess those who feel an incessant need to make themselves feel better by attempting to make others feel worse about themselves will always be there, in their dark little corner of the universe, alone, and waiting for someone to take their bait.

Not me, won’t be me. Ever. I wish them all love and light, I hope for the best for all of them. I also hope that they stay away from me and those I love.

Attention and Intention. It Works!

We had our first outdoor full moon sound healing at the beach on Wednesday. It was a cold, for Florida, and windy evening. Temps in the low 60’s with wind blowing steady at about 20 mph. The wind blew hard enough to blow the gongs over as we were setting up.

Just before we went Dan asked me how many people I thought would come. Based on the number of people who responded to our FB event, 273 I think it was, I said about 25. Thinking maybe 10% of them would show. Based on the cold and wind, Dan guessed 5.

We had somewhere around 25. (Can you see the smile breaking out on my face?)

We headed down to the beach early, because we didn’t know if we might have to move our set-up a few times to get the most sound out of it, with the wind blowing the way it was. As it turned out we set up and didn’t have to move. Then we set about “tuning” up the gongs. Which means, playing them, getting the vibration going. Plus we were checking to see how far the sound would travel on the beach. Anyway, there were many people walking by, since we were set up on the beach beside the “casino” which is not a casino but a dance hall right on the water in the middle of the commercial district. The casino has a dance night every Wednesday night so as people were waiting for that to start they came over and listened. A whole bunch of them wanted to sign up for our mailing list, so they could come to the next one.

At about 6 I told Dan I was nervous. No one was there, and we were supposed to start playing at 6:30. He looked at me like I was crazy and said, “You can get nervous at 6:20. But not yet….” Then at 6:20 he said, “ok…you can get nervous.” As he said it, 2 of our musician friends showed up. And about 20 more people. All at once. Then a few more straggled in in the next few minutes. All were dressed in their winter coats, hold-overs we all have in our closet for the rare cold day or night down here. It was 80° on Tues, no wind. Perfectly beautiful sunny Florida day. It’s been pretty chilly since then.

We started right on time. At first everyone was sitting up, on their blankets or in chairs. A half hour later as I walked through the crowd playing the rain stick and ocean drum, I noticed everyone was now laying down, except for the few in chairs. All were deep into a meditation it seemed, even the 90+ woman in a wheel chair whose daughter, appearing to be about 70 or so, had brought her down.

A few of the people left after about 40 min, I am pretty sure because of the cold. But the majority of them stayed for the whole thing. So many of them came up and left tips in the jar, and thanked us profusely. Some of them wanted to stay and tell us about their experience, one person originally from NY offered to help us anyway she could. She was quite familiar with sound baths, though not like ours, not with the gongs dominating. She loved it. So many people conveyed that they were thrilled to have us doing this in our little town. Some people left comments on our FB posts. One guy said., in a comment, that it was his first night in his new house in our town, that he was walking on the beach and stumbled on our gongbath. It was “magical” he said.

It turned out exactly as I’d hoped it would, that we would begin to create a community of like-minded people. I will say I had a clear picture in my head of what I wanted to have happen, and what I hoped to bring to those who came. When it was all said and done, I thought about all the things I have successfully manifested with attention and intention. The outcome of my divorce, my home in CT, my home in Fl, the amazing man in my life, the circle of friends I have here….

Attention and intention. It works.

We’ve decided to hold sound healings on the beach for every full moon, at least until it’s too hot and rainy, maybe 5-6 months or so. So many people asked if we would do that. And honestly, I don’t care that it’s for free. We made a little through love donations, but the joy we got out of playing was worth it. Totally. We are hoping that by the time the rainy season comes we will have a following enough that we can find a venue to play indoors, and that people might be willing to pay $10 or so then.

Life is good, amazing really. We are taking the weekend off…meaning we are not going out to see any of our friends play at the local venues, we are staying home and read, and do laundry and rest. Make some of our favorite meals. Start planning our cruise in detail. It’s all good.

A few more things to focus our attention and intentions on. Love and light to all.

Sunrise, and Other Thoughts

Looking through the slats of my partially closed venetian blinds, I see the sunrise begin. The sky turns golden in the east. The only clouds in the sky this morning are over Tampa Bay, off to the east, and in a matter of moments, they change from bright golden white to a rosy gold, as the sun begins to make its way above the earth here. It’s a peaceful, soothing way to begin the day, watching the spectacle that is a Florida sunrise.

Next week we will be doing our sound healing at the beach, in the full moon on Wednesday. The full moon is really Tuesday, but we chose to do it Wednesday, when it will still be 99.45% full, because a local yoga instructor is doing a yoga class on the beach in the full moon on Tuesday, and because there is an open mic that we and most of our friends like to go to on Tuesday night.

I made a FB event for our sound bath.  I always make one for our sessions at the yoga studio, but generally with very little response. This one, a free sound healing at the beach, has had a lot of response, over 200 people! So I am very excited that we might have a good crowd. Last time we did the sound bath, the crowd was not a crowd, is was just a couple people. However, we did a really great job performing. We all walked out just feeling good about it. Since we generally just used those sessions as practice, that’s all we could ask of it. I felt so good, not at our performance per se, but because of the effects, the good, happy, fulfilled way I felt that I told Dan and my friend Lynn who plays with us that I would be happy to do it for free just to feel like that. We’ve been practicing a lot, practicing playing off of each other, etc. Got a few new instruments and tools. I’m really looking forward to playing at the beach for more than a few people.

In other news, Dan and I are going on a cruise in December from Tampa to the Western Caribbean. We are very excited! Dan’s never been on one, and I have only been on one, and it was 10 years ago. 7 nights, and 4 stops. We’re going with our bff’s from CT. They’re flying down here and we’ll all drive over to the port. I expect it to really be fun. Two days at sea, and a day each in Costa Maya, Roatan Honduras, Belize, and Cozumel. I’ve wanted to snorkel in Belize since I was certified in scuba 42 years ago, lol. Not scuba diving any longer, but the snorkeling is supposed to be some of the best in the world. Other than that, we haven’t made a lot of plans except to relax in the sun and enjoy ourselves. I’m really looking forward to the days at sea.

We hosted our first real get together at my house a couple weeks back. We had 6 or 7 people over for pulled pork and baked beans. One of my besties here brought her home-made mac and cheese. The women were part of our writers group, and all the men are musicians. It turned out well, I think everyone had a good time. We laughed a lot, like “My face/stomach hurts from laughing” kind of stuff. It was good! We’ve made so many good friends here. The vibe is so laid back, and accepting. I am so happy this is where I landed for retirement.

My writer’s group is coming on Sunday, so I need to get the house picked up a little. Today I’m going to sit for an artists guild over on Treasure Island, which is one of the St. Pete beaches. I will get paid $40 to sit for 2 hours so they can practice their portraiture. I guess every 20 min I will get a 10 minute break.

My sis just got back down here for the winter, so we made a lunch date for a couple weeks from now. Looking forward to seeing her.

So, it’s been busy. I have a feeling that after the holidays, I will just want to collapse, but it’s nice to be busy. It helps to keep my mind sharp. I get a little mushy when I don’t have a focus. Kind of how when I worked I was “on” all the time, because I had to be. Don’t have to do it for work, now I do it for the things I have passion for.

Seems like nice way to live.

Love and light to all.

Gong Effects

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I had a wonderful day today. I woke up after almost 9 hours of sleep, at Dan’s house where we’d been for a few days. Sleeping even 7 hours is a feat I rarely accomplish, so 9 hours is amazing. We had coffee, and breakfast, and quiet conversation. We planned to get back to my house tonight. I had a date with one of my best friends here to meet at our favorite Italian restaurant for a glass of wine and a platter of antipasti. We ended up with a carafe, not a glass, and 3 hours later left there slightly inebriated, but it was great. She and I never run out of things to talk about. I came home, Dan was here. We caught up with each other, we played a couple games of cards, we made a quick dinner.

Then we sat down in the living room, in front of the TV. We realized that Game 7 of the Series was on, and Dan’s a baseball fan, so we agreed we’d watch it. Since we had about 25 minutes until the game started, he decided to play a gong for a while, so I sat back, closed my eyes and let myself go with it.

I was sitting with my hands in my lap. They were cool, and dry, and clasped in my lap. After about 10 minutes, I moved my right hand, which was clasping my left. I could not for the life of me figure out what I was touching. The gong was playing low, fairly quiet, and my hands, touching only each other, seemed disassociated. As if I were two people. One doing the touching, with both hands. The other one being the one touched by those hands. I felt the touch on the outside and on the inside differently.

I actually had to open my eyes and look to see what was going on with my hands.

I really felt out of my body. That’s only happened to me a few times, and it’s a very cool, albeit weird, experience. The duality, right there, then melding back into one, into me, all parts flowing back together. The gong is an amazing instrument, to somehow facilitate that happening. `

He tapered the sound off and stopped after about 20 minutes. By the time he got back to the couch, I had forgotten the weirdness with my hands. Then about a half-hour later, something triggered it back into my mind. I told Dan, who never does anything but support me. His response was, even before I said it, “Oh you were a little out of your body!” He gets it. It’s amazing to be with someone who gets that!

So, I had a wonderful, but slightly strange day. I would be happy to feel this way every day.

Love and light, everyone

 

Picture was taken by me.  My gong is on the right.  Dan’s is on the left.

End of Day

palm fronds in the dark

The evening was starless
The palm fronds were a dark silhouette
Waving gently against a grey sky
As the balmy tropical breeze
Gently blew the warm rain
Across the bay.

I thought of you
Your arms around me
Your hand on the back of my neck
Gently stroking my hair.

I leaned into the strong circle
Of your arms,
Felt the heat of your shoulder
And there rested my head

It was a dream I dreamed
Under the darkened sky
Waiting for your return
I missed you tonight.

I hope your dreams are
As sweet as mine.
I’ll see you soon my love
When daylight breaks once more.

 

Bu Deborah E. Dayen