My date went VERY well!!!  We continued to hit it off.  He seems to be genuine, not afraid to put himself out there and be known.  He likes to talk, and likes that I am not afraid to either.  He said he is shy, I laughed.  Because he’s been anything but shy with me.  He’s very appropriate, and he’s funny.  He made me laugh, and that’s so important to me.  We both kept things light most of the time, but did discuss our situations, our marriages.  I didn’t talk much about my relationship with S, except to say I had one.  He didn’t ask.  Which was good, I think, that I didn’t have to get into it.

Before I left for the date though, I did send S a text.  I just didn’t want his unanswered voice mail hanging over me.  I said I think it’s best that we don’t speak to each other yet, I’m not ready.  I am still very hurt by the cruelty with which he broke my heart.  I also told him that I didn’t know what happened to him, that he’s become someone I don’t really know.  He can leave me a voice mail or an email, because both of those give me the option to wait to listen or read them until I feel strong enough.  I hope he understood.  I am protecting myself.

I’m glad I sent it, it cleared my head to meet this new guy, Jim. I just didn’t want any unfinished business taking up space in my head. I thoroughly enjoyed talking with Jim for 2 hours.  He kissed me good bye, twice, we made plans to see each other this week.  And he called me on his way home, and told me he loved my laugh, and he missed me already.  🙂

So it’s way early, but looking good so far.  🙂

A had asked me to let him know how it went, I told him that Jim is a lot like him.  Open heart, willing to take a risk not knowing the outcome.  He’s also a lot like me.  We share common values.

I guess only time will tell if today was the day, lol.  But I’m feeling good so far, haven’t really been down all day.  I remember when I felt happy almost all the time.  It’s been awhile.  It’s good to be back here.