So Hum, the ancient mantra.  Meaning simply, I am.  Simply?  Maybe not so simply?  I Am is God’s name, they say.  I am that I am.  And so, on this spiritual journey we are taught never to put words after I AM that God couldn’t be.

It’s hard, to remember this.  To remember that I Am worthy, to remember not to say I am not deserving.  I Am beautiful, not to say I am ugly.  I Am lovable, not to say I am only deserving others disdain.

I do my morning meditation almost every day, beginning with So Hum.  Breathe in love on the in breath with So, breathe out all that no longer serves on the out breath with Hum.  Every day, clean house, every day lift your level of consciousness to let go of old useless ideas, and allow more love in your life.

Love without condition. Loving someone, everyone, without knowledge or care if they love you back. Is that hard?  Yes, at times.  But the part that is hard needs to be uncovered, and let go on the out breath with Hum.

I am relearning this…to love without condition.  Why would anyone need to meet my measure of worthiness to be loved?  They need to meet their own.  I need to allow people to be, to find their own level of happiness, and be themselves.  In fact, I only need to find MY own level, and stay out of other people’s business.  If someone chooses to include me intimately in their life, then i can choose whether or not that serves me.  I am finding it is not the other way around though.  Just because I may choose to include someone in my life, i have to accept that it may not serve them.  At least in the present moment.

But I find love has a way, when it is truly given without condition, of bringing those that we most want in our lives to us.  It is human nature to go where the real love is, the easy love, the love that says, “You are valuable, just because you exist.”  It is fearless love, because it doesn’t need to know the outcome, it is willing to take the risk, it is willing to open it’s arms and say, “Here with me, be yourself.  I will love you. I will hold you when you need it, I will let go and let you fly if that is what serves you.”

I learned this when my son lived with his father, when I had very limited contact with him.  I suppose I always knew it was the truth, I always believed that love without condition would open a pathway for him to travel.  It did, he was able to find it and travel it, out of the dark murkiness of abuse, he followed a light that may have been faint at first, but steady. And  he found his way.

Life is for loving, as Deepak Chopra said, in my morning meditation, our inherent nature is love.

So Hum.  Always, love on the in breath.  You will never run out.,