I did a 10 minute meditation at lunch. It’s all I had time for.  In that short time I went to someplace beautiful, with glowing colors, warm lights flashing, and a feeling of joy, snd safety. 

It was particularly lovely because I have not heard from S for more than 24 hours. Not that I expected to, I told him that while I love him as much as ever, I can’t continue with a relationship which had become purely physical in the last couple of months. So I don’t want to see him if that’s what we are all about. 

I miss him, I love him, but in the words of JLo I gotta love myself enough to walk away.  I don’t know that S agrees with me about the direction we’ve taken, I don’t know if he’s angry at me, tho I would guess he is, or is just walking away because he is unable to give me any more than that right now.  I’m not going to speak for him. I believe he’s got a good heart, he’s innately a good man, that he needs some time to come to grips with himself and how he feels about many things. 

Maybe I’ll hear from him, maybe not. But during that meditation, I found a place I want to be, to travel to. I’d like company, but I’ll go it alone if that’s how it works out. 

The universe doesn’t make mistakes. I am where I’m supposed to be, and I’m going where it leads me. 

Tonight I’m going to have an angel/psychic reading. I have no idea what to expect, but am looking forward to it. 

Thinking right now of the Van Morrison song “this must be what paradise is like….so quiet here…so quiet here…”  

Peace out folks.