Just wondering, out loud, how someone does that, and puts his head on the pillow and goes to sleep. How do you rip apart someones heart, and not even check to see if they’re ok. How do you walk away and refuse to be accountable for the damage you have done? How do you just walk away from someone you have talked to, intimately, every day for over 18 months? How do you not give a damn how they feel, if they can sleep or eat or breathe?
I guess I had more words, they were just slow in being born because I’m so tired. I think I’m done for the night now.
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Those exact questions come to me often. I think it’s because they can’t face the destruction and devastation they’ve caused, so they run away… If they don’t see it, it didn’t happen…
S hates to be at fault for anything. He really hates it. He hates to hurt someone. The first time he came to break up with me, before he fucked the prison whore, he couldn’t do it because I was crying so much. This time, he doesn’t know what to do because he wants to be with her, it’s like a dream he’s been playing in his head. I seriously have my doubts that it will go well for him, but I guess that’s none of my business. Hard to suddenly be thrust out of his life.
Ohhh, I just found this quote – very apt for both our situations; thank you Universe…..
“ People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own souls.” (Carl Jung)
True true. I think I have figured out this thing, at least for now. Feeling much better.