Is this true? I guess I don’t believe that love is pain and sacrifice. I love people, despite their “filthy hearts”. But I won’t sacrifice my own life for them, not once I know what they are capable of. From that point on, I will love from a distance. I don’t, won’t, invite pain and sacrifice to a seat at my table.

I am going to type this as I am sure it may be helpful. I am an open lover of people. I have always been this way from as long as I can remember. Both my mother and father encouraged affection and for me to be unashamed in sharing love, with others. I recently had a friend of mine, one I had known for nearly 16 years pretty much tell me that the reason she just upped and stopped communicating with me is because she could not handle my type of love. It is too intense. It is not what she requires. As a sister-friend, as one of my closest friends, this came as a shock. I moved through the pain by giving myself one day… ONE DAY to totally and utterly break down and I did not remain in that place.
When you love someone for 16 years, no matter who they are, them instantly removing themselves from your life based on something they have felt for however long and you are made aware of it in a few minutes, is painful. It is the true and finite meaning of the word. I wish you peace. I wish you days of waking up knowing just how divine you are in your own light and that one day, feeling/receiving this same light from someone else. It’ll come, eventually. What is so beautiful about pain is that time almost always gives us the right amount of clues to exit and act accordingly. I am praying for your exit. Peace~
Thank you thank you. Just…thank you. Your words are lifting, and comforting. I know what you say is true, and true for me swell. The love can be too intense for some people. I’m better, every day. Thank you so so much.
You’re very welcome! Good luck.