Sun sparkles off the water

Gleams in the corner of my eye. 

I remember days like this at the beach 

With him. 

Counting the boats. 

Seeing sundogs

Watching the windsurfers. 

Reaching for him

Him for me

In the solitude

Breath escaping like blue smoke into the cold air. 

That was before. 

Before she came back 

And he took her, 

Without letting go of me

Hanging me out in the cold air

With my memories. 

I wish they weren’t tainted now

With the color of lies, 

I wish something could have remained that I could have held on to

As real. 

The color of a lie is so strong,  

so bold

Casting a pall on all of it. 

Shadows where there was sun. 

The excruciating pain is gone now, 

There’s just a dullness covering the things that had given me joy. 

The color of lies took him away, just as boldly as she did. 

I guess the color of lies took him from her too, in the end.