Why did you have to turn out to be such a shit? 

What joy was there in dismantling my heart

Piece by piece?

You hid pieces of it all over.

For months I have looked for them

But I can’t find them all 

and I can’t make them fit together 

Like they used to be. 

Was it power?

You did it because you could? 

I was at your mercy

And you were not worthy of the task

Of caring for the heart you carved up and threw away. 

A waste of my love

A blight on my soul. 

You took my body

And made it yours

Then you took my heart 

And devoured it 

Trying to fill your own emptiness. 

I want it back 

I want to give it to someone else

Who won’t leave me broken and splattered. 

To satisfy their own greed. 

Someone who will take it and gently kiss the pieces back together

And make it more full than it ever was for you. 

You never deserved it. 

I gave it willingly

But you didn’t deserve it. 

I want it back. 

Even now you deny that you took it. 

To be denied by the man you love

Denied to the world

Is perhaps the biggest betrayal of all. 

Why did you have to be such a shit?

Because you are. That’s all. 

Because you are.