Today is the last day of work for 10 days.  Oh how lovely.  Our company does not do a company sponsored Christmas party, so we put on a potluck of our own. I’m bringing pulled pork and cookies.  There are about 20 of us, and there will be so much food!  It’s fun.  We don’t even tell our boss, lol.

It’s going to be warm here for Christmas.  Crazy… in the 60’s.  Unheard of.  More likely and normal to be below freezing.  But I’ll take it, I’m good with it!  Probably going to open my windows tomorrow!

I slept better last night, though I still wake up a lot.  No crazy dreams, nothing at all that I remember.  That’s how it usually is.  When I woke I started thanking the universe for all my blessings, whatever popped into my head.  I also played the CD I play almost every night while I go to sleep.  Its called Environment 1 by Anugama.  It’s music set to the sound of waves crashing. Very peaceful.  And I got back to sleep, every time without a whole lot of effort.

Thank you, Universe.

I suppose tomorrow begins a cooking marathon, lol.  I make a cake every year, a from-scratch angel food cake with fresh raspberries and a raspberry amaretto sauce.  I make one for me, and one as a birthday present for my bff whose birthday was Monday.  I bring it over to her house Christmas Day at some point.  And baked stuffed shrimp for dinner for my son and I.  Christmas I’ll make a ham, since my son wants me to make split pea soup with the leftovers, scalloped potatoes, some kind of veggie.

It’s a quiet Christmas with just he and I but that’s fine.  I wonder if we’ll be together next year, with me moving to Florida and he moving to Colorado.  I may have to fly him to see me at some point over the holidays.  I will miss him so much.  But I’ll have other family there, which will be nice.  And he had a family of friends who will be there, and he’s excited to be starting out on his own.  He’s been transitioning, working full time for a long time now, 4 or 5 years, and making his own car payment, contributing to the household.  I’m very glad that he’s ready to be on his own, but I will miss him so much.

And who knows….maybe there will be someone new in my life.  That would be nice.  I think I’ll be more careful the next time, before I give my heart away.

Life is good this morning.  Happy again.  I really do hope that S finds some peace, but it’s a journey he has to take alone.  Which, though he always said that’s what he wanted, is really not.  I don’t believe anyone really wants to be alone.  I think it’s human nature to want connection.

Peace, everyone.  Love and light.