The two blogs are beginning to wear on me. I feel disingenuous at best. I feel two-faced at worst. I’m going to take a couple of days off, and sort my emotions out here. In private, by myself. I’m a friggin mess at the moment. I’m not being true to myself. I’m not happy. I feel I am not free to write what’s on my mind. If I write it on this blog, it causes issues with other people. If I write it on the private blog, it causes an issue within me.
So, I’m taking a break. I’ll be back when I figure out what works for me, what I want to do, what path I want to take. I’m tired and I want to go home.
See you on the flip side.
learningtolivelikewaterblog.com 
Take care. jx
thanks…..
I understand, that can’t be easy. Wishing you peace and clarity! 💐
Thanks. I have a lot of clarity this morning. Feel like I got myself back. It feels good to be honest. Put up something on LLW2 about it. Just not here.
I can see your dilemma… however I would be really pissed if I had to change where and what I write. Other people need to learn how to recognize things that hurt them and stay away, I don’t think it is up to me to do that for them, of course not to use their name is something I can do but other than that… it is enough that he has done what he has done to you , enough is enough…. I think I have finally gotten to that place. what he says or wants really doesn’t have any a huge effect on me anymore. I know I am in a good place because my health is improving, my emotions are no longer making me physically ill like they have been for the last few months… I actually have a few moments a day when I DON’T think about him and when I do I feel grateful that I never lived with him and had more of a real committed relationship with him because if I had, he would have cheated and lied anyway and this whole process would have been that much worse… so, do what you need to do for you, I am always here for you, you know that…. love you. M.
Totally agree Michelle. Check out LLW2.
I don’t know how to get to your other blog! help! 🙂
Copy and paste: http://www.livelikewate2.wordpress.com
I can’t put up a link because if I do then anyone can access it.
tried it, says is doesn’t exist… ?
never mind, it didn’t work cause water was spelled wrong in the link! 🙂
Sorry typo. http://Www.livelikewater.wordpress.com
That should work.
yup, got it! 🙂 glad to read your last post on 2… 🙂
yay – it worked for me too! I’ll keep visiting both, just in case you feel inspired to post something uber private. xo
I may use it once in awhile. thinking about it lately, but not sure I need it yet. Thans…
The miracle-u-lous part of having a heart is it tells you what’s good for YOU. Your heart knows Deb. You have but to re-connect and listen and then it’s your choice. Life’s a matter of choices, isn’t it? All up to us what we want or don’t want at any given time. The wonder-filled part is, most of our choices are change-able, we are ‘able’ to change them to make different, perhaps better choices when more information is gleaned. Ain’t life grand?! Personally i love a place i can go where i feel safe and let it all hang out, beat my v-pillow with a v-hose so-to–speak. It’s called venting and it does my blood pressure good to release in a healthy, non-destructive way, which your blogging is for you. No need to disturb those sleeping gremlins, this is your place, your space with peeps that love, care, support and encourage you, that love traveling this path with you. Lead on, in whatever, whichever format you choose – ah, there’s that ‘choice’ word again 😉 xo
Ahh thank you Karen. Perfect timing. The universe at work.
All-ways, the Universe can only give us what we ask for. I prefer to think of my r/s with Source as a “boomerang” – what i direct out, comes back to me. Once i understood this, i began to lighten up, let loose, have fun and hang on because my Source, the Universe, God, Higher Power, the I Am has a wonder-filled sense of humor & loves to delight, surprise and please me in the most unexpected ways :*) xo