I’m getting too old for this. Really…..
Too old to go to work at 8:15 every day, and and get home at 7 PM. I’m so exhausted when I get home. Thankfully, I usually think ahead and have some decent food left over in the fridge from the weekend. Grateful for that.
I had a glass of wine while it heated up tonight. It tasted good. I just wanted to get in the fast lane to get to the slow lane. It worked, lol.
I’m too old for the energetic thing too. It’s over, whatever it was. I’ve been through it 100 times. Even the main sign that was plaguing me since Monday has disappeared. Thankfully. It was so weird. But I followed my instincts to get rid of it, and I did. I know this is cryptic, and I apologize. Just trust me, it was weird. But I also knew where it was coming from.
It seems that the only way to deal with that kind of energetic spike is with unconditional love. I’m calling it spike because it’s not really an attack, though that sounds more dramatic. It’s just a matter of feeling someone else’s energy, their emotions, or just feeling like they are trying on some level to make contact with you. To get your energy focused on them. In this case, I don’t want the contact. I know what will happen, I know it will cord me to this person yet again and that’s not something that I want to have happen.
When we were talking, I would just call him, or text him and find out what was going on. It’s easier to deal with, but then, if we were talking he already had my energy focused on him, and was just strengthening it.
I’ve been angry, upset, tried to ignore it. Nothing works, except the things I did today. I sent reiki this morning. I recited the Ho-oponopono (I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you) and the Meditation I put up in an earlier post. Plus, I’ve been praying for him, for his happiness, and his health.
It’s the unconditional love, present in all of those things, that can turn the negative energy around, and send it back to do some good. The good thing is, you heal yourself when you do any of it. You are the conduit, so the positive energy comes from the universe and passes through you, as it goes wherever you send it.
Tonight I’m free of it, until the next time, lol.
I made plans to go out with a friend tomorrow after work. A nice local place, with a band. Older crowd. Decent food, small. We want to meet some local men, lol. We’ll have fun, we always do.
Less than a week til I go until Florida! Yay! I have a lot to do this weekend in preparation to be gone for a week.
Maybe I’m not so old as I felt when I got home tonight.
Gonna get a good night’s sleep tonight, see if I can wake up laughing again.
Love and light all.
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Wow, this is funny… that Ho-oponopono prayer you mentioned here, Rodney wrote a song using that last year and told me he was saying he was sorry to me in that song… of course I believed him when he told me that but now…. ? you can hear the song on his facebook page or by searching his name on google, if you are interested…
I don’t remember his last name. I use that all the time. It’s a wonderful healing mantra, for yourself and others. ONe time I hadn’t talked to S for a week, and I spent the day saying that, literally, all day when I was walking around, not engaged in work. And that evening he called me. It’s powerful. As is the reiki. It heals me and I hope it heals what ails him, that he can’t articulate well. I really do….hope that he can become his potential.
I hope R heal as well, but I doubt that will happen, he likes himself the way he is too much. Mashia
I’ll look it up.