Just now answering one of Megan’s blogs, I realized that S knew exactly what he was doing in January with me. He was hoping B would find out. He knew how jealous she was and knew that would bring her back. Perfect. He was intent on hurting her again, knowing her reaction. Knowing the “green monster” she had.
He always complained about my “green monster”. But hers was far worse than mine. It’s an ego boost to him. I see it now. Mine was, hers is. It’s a control tool for a narcissist like him.
Well it worked. Her last email she told me to copy her whenever I messaged him. Lol. No audacity there. Geezus.
User of people. He’ll do anything to achieve what he wants. He’ll hurt anyone, betray anyone. His biggest ego boost is having a woman cry over him. He is such a classic narcissist it’s unreal. And the boost he gets from her is bigger than from me I guess. He was willing to hurt her again, just to get what he wants.
She’s more needy that I. My ex used to complain I was a “free spirit”. Damn straight. Never needed either man. Just wanted them. Thank God I have extracted myself from that dysfunctional BS. And no tears this time. A shrug of the shoulders maybe.
I had my own reasons for doing what I did in January. Fact is, he gave me no pain, he actually soothed the wounds he cut into me last fall and I let go easily. I had a few issues with the way he twisted and lied to her, but in the end, who the hell cares. I know the truth. He knows. I could care less what she believes.
He used me to bring her back. So what he’s got is someone who responds to negative motivation. She had someone willing to devastate her to get his way. They are fucking perfect for each other. Misery is not my thing.
But I used him too. To put a salve on my wounds. I found out I was the only one who could actually physically care for him, I got a little ego boost out of it. And I walked away in tact this time. I didn’t get attached. I think I wanted him to be with her, because I sure would never have trusted him again. I worked at having the 2 of them talk those 3 weeks. And I was successful. I couldn’t have cared less. I fact I was glad.
It always works out the way it should, you know? I’m at peace with it, I have isolated myself from the 2 of them and their negativity, their darkness, their innate sadness. It’s such a relief. This morning I was dancing in my kitchen while I made coffee listening to “Sugar Magnolia.”
Thus is my life. Forever forward. It’s all good.
Love and light
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It’s amazing what you can see with hindsight, isn’t it? The cold calculation of how the situation will play out. Also, narcs love to triangulate, so you and B were perfectly lined up for that.
Be very glad to be out of it all, away from the drama and the heartache. ❤ x
Yes. It is. And how your situation increased my perspective on Scott. What a lonely life the two of them lead. Even if they stay together, it’s all still a game. Probably to both of them. A push pull of deception and control. Always a threat. Ugh. Seems crazy now, that he ever really mattered to me. Live and learn.
Hey! I nominated you for this thingie, the Three Day quote challenge. I found it kind of fun. You can see how it is done, here:
I saved it for when my mind went a bit blank on what to blog about.. 🙂
No pressure to participate, it is just fun if you do, on your own time schedule, ofc. Hugs.
“Triangulation.” Is that why I asked the WTC (not really knowing what I was saying) if she couldn’t see that Loser was playing us against each other? Who are these pigs? LOL
Oink oink. Lol. All filthy and dirty. WTC snd Betty can have them. Ugh.
LMAO!