I’m venturing out, putting my toe in the water. The dating water. Imagine. I didn’t mean to….I wasn’t going to until I get moved.
But I just spent an hour and a half on the phone with him, and he’s a nice man. He’s real, he doesn’t seem to be a game player. He seems to have a center. I enjoyed our conversation.
Funny, he asked what I will do when I retire. I told him…make jewelry, and he asked if I had a shop on Etsy. (which I do….www.sundogsdesigns.etsy.com) and that I am obsessive about writing so would write more. He asked why I liked to write, what I get out of it….he actually took an interest in what I do, why I do it. I barely knew how to react to someone giving a shit about what I do. I didn’t tell him about the blog. I won’t ever give anyone I’m dating the link to this blog again.
But I wanted to laugh…S used to always say I should write erotica, because I wrote some for his eyes only, because he asked, because I would do almost anything for him, as long as it wasn’t illegal. And Alec said, well, if you want to write for money, write erotica. He was a CPA, he says, it will sell. But he was joking. S always said if I published a book of it he’d buy it. I’d never written any before, and I’ll probably never write it again. It was part of our dynamic, it was fun, it was intimate between us…I didn’t tell Alec I have written any and won’t. It was for S’s eyes only, he promised, because I was uncomfortable with it at first. But he betrayed me again, broke his promise again. Of course he showed B. Which he had no business doing. But he’ll betray anyone, anything he says or promises is subject to change at any time. It does hurt me a little that he treated it so callously. It was my gift to him, not to be shared. I would write it when he was feeling down, when he needed a lift, when I was thinking of him, when we’d been talking intimately all day. It was about he and I, not her…she was not a part of it and shouldn’t have been allowed to read it. She shouldn’t even have known I did it. He was probably trying to make her jealous again. But it is what it is, you know, you lie down with dogs, you get fleas. Lesson learned. I hope B knows he’ll do it to her again too, when it suits him.
So much stuff that happens brings up S. I hope that stops some day soon.
Anyway, Alec and I are going to meet for coffee one day this week. He is retired, so he asked me to make the plans around when it’s easiest for me. He said, “You tell me when and where, I’ll be there! I think you are a fabulous woman.” LOL.
I’m looking forward to meeting him.
Going to bed. Love and light.
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Here’s hoping that whenever to meet, it’ll be a nice, fun time. 🙂 Happy somewhat dating all over again to you!
Thanks tre. Yeah. Just my adventuresome Aries nature, gotta put myself out there. Meeting tomorrow. We’ll see how it goes. I think, at least we can be friends.
Friends are always good too.
I just started dating again too after major heartbreak . It’s tough to risk getting hurt . I hope you have a nice time .
Thanks, it is a little scary….I look at Scott, what he was capable of doing with no scruples. I don’t want a repeat of that for sure. This guy is definitely not a Scott, but I don’t feel a close connection either, yet. Sorry about your heartbreak. You should blog it, it is wonderful therapy!
Great! Good news 🙂
I can’t understand why on earth someone would share something that was clearly not for sharing, it reflects very badly on him.
Good luck with this new chap – he sounds like a good one! 🙂
Thanks Ogden. They did it because they have no ability to discern right from wrong. It’s what suits his purpose at the time. She’s just as bad, having to tell me she saw it like some high school bimbo. They’re both creepy. I’m glad to be away. I’ll report back here after coffee. Lol.
Let me know how it goes, okay? I guess I’m going to meet up with my high school friend. He’s excited. Me? I don’t know.
Oh yeah. I’ll report back. He called again tonight but I was out with my son for dinner. I hope he doesn’t fall crazy in love like Addison did. I just want a close friend…no romantic entanglements now, not when I’m moving. Hey good to have you back 😊
Thanks. I’m not back yet but I’m trying to figure out how to do this on my iPad. 🙂
I can’t do it on my kindle. Probably wouldn’t be much better on an ipad.. need my lap top.
Oh that sounds exciting, I hope the date is good 🙂 Interesting to see what happens! Xo (oh, I am back from my trip by the way, lol)
Oh you just answered my question! Hope you had a great time. I’ll look later to see the blog I hope you write about it!!
yes, there will be 3 blog posts (photo blogs) about the trip, but I will mix it up with other posts in between so as not to bore people with the same stuff all the time.. 🙂 But yes the first blog post is up. And it is great to be back! Missed you and your blogs 🙂