I’ve been carrying this weight.
Bending my shoulders,
At times,
It breaks me
And I fall to my knees.
I talk to it,
I say,
“I know you’re there.”
“It’s not that bad. You’re not that heavy.”
“I can keep carrying you.”
Little deceptions on my part.
Little attachments to the past.
Memories, obscured by pain.
In a heap, on my back.
In my heart.
I stop, and rest.
But I never put it down.
Until, one day
I see my eyes dark,
my shoulders stooped.
My head continuously bowed.
My legs beginning to shake,
My knees and ankles crying out….
“You’ve carried this long enough.”
“Please let it go.”
“It’s safe now.”
“Your life is joyful now.”
“This weight, it’s past time
to set it down”
And so I begin the arduous task
Of untangling all the ties that bind it to me.
The ones that weave in and out of my heart,
Around and under my soul.
And release it.
Just release it.
It will be some time,
Before the pain is all healed.
Like a broken leg,
Or a broken heart.
But it will heal.
Without the weight.
I think it will be easier to just miss him
Than to carry the weight of the lies and betrayal around
Any longer.
With each word,
And each minute
And each mile,
I will be freer.
One day, it will all be gone.
And I’ll be upright and beautiful again
And happy.
Without the weight.
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Hell….if I got rid of all the weight I’ve been carrying, I’d probably float away….LOL
I understand what you are writing about…I’m just not there yet. Oh! Did I tell you I got two new pendulums? One is a cute little jade Budha and the other one is ….not…..I can’t remember right now. LOL
It has to go a little at a time, I think. We have to get a little more grounded and let s little more go in s continuing dance. Not easy. I’m a crappy dancer but I’ll try! Cool about the pendulums! You have more than me now. But I think it’s better when you’ve chosen them. I think actually mine chose me. Lol. BTW, I was replying to another comment you made and accidentally trashed it. My cursor was jumping around the page. So I think I responded to the tight blog anyway… Idk. Pisses me off when that happens.
You just… gave us your soul…
And, I’m honored I was here for it:
“I talk to it,
I say,
“I know you’re there.”
“It’s not that bad. You’re not that heavy.”
“I can keep carrying you.””
Pain is such a sneaky thing. It wiggles in at just the wrong moments to remind us that we are certainly not yet free. Great writing here, splendid, even.
Thank you tre. It means so much to me coming from you. Xo
You’re most welcome! I loved every line. It was most enjoyable.
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Yes! So true, every word. I love the way you are talking to the pain!!
It acknowledges it, yet, lets it know that you can no longer carry all of that!
This is simply beautifully put and so true for many of us who have had similar experiences. It does take time to cut all those ties of that heavy load that we have been carrying (much too long, for some of us). Oh, thank you for this. It was amazing. Let us cut those ties! Let us be free and light, again! Hugs!
Thanks so much S. I’ve started so many times but never finished. It’s hard and scary. We get comfortable with it. But I know there’s joy on the other side. So let’s go for it!!! Xo