I just don’t know how anyone could use someone, the way he used me, and manipulate someone, the way he manipulated her, and put his head down on the pillow, satisfied with the way he lived his life and go to sleep.
It is beyond me. It is so far into the real darkness it makes me queasy, that I shared myself with a man whose capable of that. Not just what he did to me, but what he did to her, to get what he wanted, no holds barred, lies and twisting the truth, playing on her emotions that were already so traumatized. As if she ever needed to be jealous of me. But he did everything he possibly could to make her that way. Needlessly causing her pain. Needlessly. The minute she was back, I was gone. I was never competing. I was always moving away. I was with him only when I knew she wasn’t. I loved him… But that’s over too now.
He is one sick fuck to do what he did to me, but sicker by far to inflict pain on someone just to get what he wanted. To think that was the only option.
Sick sick sick.
Ok rant over. Hopefully the ugliness will get out of my head, and into the universe to correct as it sees fit.
Love and light.
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get it out there – feels better – and move on – well done
Thank you. I needed that. What creep. Successfully pitting she and I against each other to bolster his huge inflated ego. Makes me literally sick. So glad to be moving on. I hope and pray she reads this.
Yes, that’s what many men do – and you are wise to stay out of it. The thing is, women are so much more vulnerable to other woman and tend to give men the hall pass. I don’t know why it’s so but I see it (and have experienced it) time and time again.
Just glad to be out of that loop. I was hard on her. At first no, but he couldn’t stand that she and I were friendly. So he pitted us against each other, successfully manipulating her. I mean Shane in her for believing him. But shame on him for doing it. Ugly ugly. Ugly person. I feel like I need a shower.
I read “Mini-day, mini-rant”, had to read it over… lol. Whatever. 🙂
I SO understand this feeling. I have had this thought like a hundred times: How can a person just do stuff like this (over and over, too!), and then just go and sleep well at night? It is beyond understanding… This is why we need to shut them out, they can do stuff like this over and over again, there i nothing stopping them, it seems…
Take care friend. Good that you got this cleansed out of you, never good to hold anger inside. Hugs!
I thought throwing that shit out to the universe was supposed to be good…..I think it’s all coming back and biting me in the rear! WTF? And, these fucks just keep going merrily on their ways….leaving a trail of destruction behind them like slime.
Yep. I was so angry with her for acting like a high school bitch. But now I see what he did. Poor woman was already traumatized so much by his lies and deceit? And then, he shares with her only the stuff that will make her jealous and cause her pain, nothing that would allow her to feel secure and safe. I mean, how much could she take before she lashed out? She thought I was using sex to get him back and that was so far from what was going on. He’s really just such a sick fuck for doing that to her. And what he did to me? The way he used me? Let me just say he won’t get a third chance. I do hope she is reading this do she can see who he is, what he willfully did to her, and how she had nothing to fear from me. Asswipe. Pimple on the ass of humanity. I am so disgusted with him. Turning over s new leaf, no more lies he says. No just master manipulation of people. I thought my vex was bad, he can’t hold a candle to what this guy does. Intentionally causing pain to her to get her back in his bed. It’s sickening.
I don’t feel at all sorry for her. She’s like the WTC. She knew Loser had betrayed her….she kept telling him her was still in love with me….but she stayed around….for his money. When she was sending me all that crap about him “belonging to her now” and asking Loser if I thought I could come see him anytime I wanted to, I wanted to send her a message and say “how old are you…twelve?”
Nope. No sympathy for JC at all. She knew and knows what he did and what he is and she still stayed/stays. They both deserve each other.
Eh true. But honestly, she was so blindsided by him, I gotta cut her some slack. If my intuition is right she is smart enough to stay away. I’m sure she sees it now. If not… Well she will. So far the universe has put every single thing he did in her path, and it wasn’t me who told her. Which makes me happy. He’s getting it from a source that’s not deniable. lol. He’s the idiot who told her I write s blog to begin with, lol. Since he stole the letter I sent her out of her mailbox. What a shit. But not my shot any longer.
WHAT? He stole a letter? That’s a federal offense! What a dick!
I can’t wait to meet you and spend about ten minutes talking about these scumbags…..and then….having fun!
Yes. He won’t admit it but she and I both know it was him. She never got it. I told him, because I wanted it all on the table, and I called and told her too, thinking he would never have the nerve to take it. But as usual I underestimated him. She never got if. lol. But it was all cool, because I didn’t have to be the bad guy, and he cut his own throat.
I repeat….what a dick!
Hell take that as a compliment, lol. That’s why I say he’s s sick fuck.
Well, hell. Okay…I’ll go with that. My “son-in-law” said about Loser….”he’s not just a dick….he’s a pile of dicks.” I thought that was sort of poetic. LOL