Another cold rainy morning. I can’t say I’m getting used to it, lol. But it’s supposed to stop this weekend, we may see the sun on Mother’s Day.

I did go to the dr yesterday. It is apparently an intestinal virus, something that’s going around. I’ve been eating wrong. She told me to go on a clear diet, broth, jello, tea….for a few days, then go to the BRAT diet (bananas, rice apples and toast). I’m skipping the clear…because I’m diabetic, I can’t not eat all day, with my meds I’ll pass out. I can’t eat jello with sugar. So instead I had chicken and rice soup. A half a bagel in the morning. I told her I wasn’t taking one of the diabetic meds that aggravates it, skipping the morning dose. But am monitoring my sugar closely. So far it’s been fine. So maybe I didn’t need the morning dose any more. Whatever. It seems to be a little better this morning. I slept a solid 6 hours last night, which wasn’t enough but at least it was 6 hours of good sleep.

Next weekend my friend from the Adirondacks is coming to visit for a few days. We have been friends since we were 12 or 13. We lost each other for years, and when we found each other, were so surprised to be only 4 hours apart. We grew up in Iowa, 1000 miles from here. Now I need to find something to do. She was a music teacher for 35 years in upstate New York. I’m checking out tickets to a musical at the Goodspeed Opera House on the Connecticut river. I think she’d like that a lot.

Also gonna play a day trip somewhere…Newport maybe. I love Newport and I don’t know that she’s ever been. It’s such a fun day there.

I lowered the price on the house yesterday. Not enough interest, the feedback was it was priced too high. And based on the comps that was probably true, despite the fact that it had more square footage than most of the homes here. Whatever..we do what we have to do. I want to be moving this summer.

I’ve been dealing with some emotional issues around S lately. I think I’ve worked through them, put them in the place where they won’t hurt me any longer. Still looking forward to leaving all that behind when I go to Florida. I don’t know why I still care and worry about him, but I do. Contact never ever does me any good. But now, idk, I am able to kind of shrug my shoulders and not get too upset over it. I know he is who he is. I don’t expect that he’s ever going to be accountable for the things he’s done to me. Not accountable in the way that he’d ever try to right the wrongs. He has said he was sorry about last summer. But it’s rather empty, it means very little when he was able to still deny me this past winter, deny all that we had, share my personal stuff with her. It’s who he is. And I gotta feel sorry for that, that he can’t see that his being disingenuous hurts him more than me. I have to just let it go. He has to live with who he is. I don’t.

Today is my son’s 24th birthday!  He took today and tomorrow off.  Not expecting to see much of him, lol.  I am so proud of the young man he’s become.  I’m so glad we escaped the abuse we lived in, and he’s beginning to realize his own potential.  He’s the blessing of my life.  When he was born, I had an emergency C-section in the early morning hours following 18 hours of hard labor.  He was stuck….When they made the incision and tried to get him out, they had to put him back and make the incision bigger.  When they weighed him they were all guessing his weight, “9”  “no 9 1/2” .  The nurse who was weighing him said, “You all better guess again.”  “What is he?”

“10  15″  I heard that, and thought, no it’s later than that.  I came up here after 1 am….

He was 10 lbs, 15 oz.  22 1/2″ long.  A three month old, lol.  a good sized 3 month old. lol.  He’s still a big kid.  6’3”.  With a good heart. Love that kid so much.

Well, off for another day at work. Love and light all.