Life is full of lessons. Sometimes simple ones. Like, before you take an herbal remedy for digestive health, find out what it really treats.

The other day at the store, I looked for a tea that was for digestive health. I bought kombucha tea, the box said it was for digestive health and boosted the immune system. I had a couple cups and was up on and off that night with my stomach issue. I just assumed that the virus had gotten a little worse, and the tea didn’t really help. Regular black tea seemed to help more.

Yesterday the virus acted up again, because I was not careful enough about what I ate Sunday because the symptoms had really subsided. Last night I thought I’d try another cup of kombucha tea after I had a bowl of chicken soup. I was up in the night again, and thought it must have something to do with the tea. I googled it this morning. It’s for constipation, not the opposite.

Geezus.

Drinking regular tea this morning. Lesson is, I was an assuming ass, lol. And sabotaged myself.

I’m sorry if this is TMI. I have been dealing with this going on 4 weeks, and I can’t believe I was that stupid. But I was. Lesson learned. I miss my coffee.

I looked in Louise Hays book “You Can Heal Your Life” for the emotional component of this virus. Fear. Rejection. Running away.

I think it’s a lot of fearful stress. Mostly around my son, taking off for Colorado. Not fear as to whether or not he’ll be ok, I don’t think. Because I know he will be. I know he’ll get a job easily, he has good recommendations, a solid work history, and an incredible work ethic. But I will miss him so much, and I will worry, I know this, because it’s always just been he and I against the world. Even when he lived with a girlfriend for awhile, he was here once a week for dinner, he was only a half hour away. And while I am very excited about my move, it’s also unnerving, to leave all you know, have known.

My sister and brother-in-law couldn’t be doing more to make it easy for me. They are wayyyy beyond what anyone could have ever expected. I am very blessed with the people I know. I know I have to trust the universe, which has been intent on making sure I know this is the right move for me.

Rejection? Not really so much. I used to feel that, I resolved it. I see that whole situation clearly, and I don’t even feel like I’m running away from it, though I did for awhile, just wanted to run to Florida to get away from it. Now I’m running to something, and leaving that part of my life in the past. It really isn’t a factor any longer. I wish him love and light, I wish he could see his own potential, and find some happiness in these later years of his life.

Well, lots of analyzing this morning, lol. But I think it was a good thing. Sometimes we need to do that, dissect things and find the root causes. Going to work on trusting the universe to watch out for my son, just as it does for me.

Love and light, all.