Sitting here drinking tea, and eating chocolate.  Just a little chocolate.  I think the kombucha tea was like a cleanse, because I felt really good the rest of the day today.  Until the kid who was supposed to come here tonight and get me my prescription drug coverage for when I go on Medicare next month didn’t show.

I called him at 7:15, he was due here at 7.  He apologized profusely, he hurt his knee and was on the way to get an MRI.  I said, “Well, Michael (this kid is my son’s age), a phone call would have gone a long way.”  I left work a half hr before I would have normally just to be able to eat before he came.  (Dinner consisted of rice.  Yum.)

I am so aggravated with this kid.  He enrolled me in Medicare.  I didn’t know when I wanted it to start at that time, (back in March) so he said, “I’ll just put down May 1.  You can change it at any time.”   Yeah, sure you can, if you have a couple hours to spend on the phone with two ridiculous gov’t agencies….Didn’t bother to ask me how I wanted to be billed, so I have a quarterly bill for $609 that I am supposed to pay.

I bought, I thought, supplemental insurance from him, I gave him a couple of checks.  I have no cards, no policies…

I have to go find his email address and email him a list of what I expect of him in the next 7 days.  I’m supposed to start Medicare June 1.

I am too far with him now to go somewhere else, but as soon as I push him into making sure I’m covered, I will find another agent that’s not an idiot.

Ok, sorry for the rant.

Other than that….

I went to my boss at 4:45 and said, “Did you remember that I am off Thursday and Friday?”  He went into hyper drive, (which is about 15 levels above my personal hyper drive setting) about how I need to have a memo out so that I am covered….I said, “I was just out in March, they know what they have to do”. To which he replied that they don’t do it, he wants to go over the memo with them all, he doesn’t want to be my secretary….

He can be such an ass.  The big issue is email, and that everyone is already overworked so they all have a hard time covering anyone else’s job.  On top of that he depends on me, way past the parameters of my job, which is ok most of the time.  But not when it works to get me all wound up that I’m taking 2 days off.  Only a few more days.  But I feel sorry for those who are covering me.

I am so looking forward to my 4 days off.  To seeing my friend. To doing some really fun stuff.  To taking her to the gong bath, and boy, do I need the gong bath.  My emotions lately have been all over the spectrum, kind of bracketed by my poems, “Keep Rising” and “Choke Weed”.  I’d like to hit middle, calm ground at some point and stay there.  Today at lunch, I did about a half hour meditation, as soon as I finished eating.  I was in my car, meditation music on.  I sent reiki to someone I thought needed it, and that always serves me well, because the practitioner is just the conduit, and it passes through me, to them.  I also did the Ho’oponopono for a little while focused on that person.  It was a (finally) beautiful spring day.  It was lovely to be outside, in the fresh air, and focused on shining a light where I could.

Extending love, not hate and anger, always helps me to get back to where I want to be.

I think I’m on the path there to calm space.  Like the place Van Morrison is singing about in this song, “So Quiet in Here”.  Enjoy.  Lyrics below song.