Whew! Now that I got that off my chest (see last blog…LOL). Feeling a lot freer than ever before. Let him try to contact me. Who the fuck cares. Delete delete delete.

In other news….

I had a lovely day today. I got my herbs planted in my teeny herb garden. I cut back the thyme and lavender, which just takes over the garden. Lemon balm does too, I grow that to make tea. The lavender I just have to have the smell waft up to the deck when I’m sitting out there. And the bees love it.

Then a friend came over whose son is getting married in July. They want to have malas, the bride and groom, and I told her I’d string them for her. We have to see if we can get the beads from somewhere though. We talked about our book for book club. We talked about the stress of moving, my big list, how I think my stomach issue is still all about that. And she has the stress of this wedding, and she works, and her daughter is getting divorced, and she is so close to her step granddaughter now, and how hard that is. Her daughter is pretty much a mess.

We all have our problems. We are good support for each other though. We talk, we listen, we try to solve them through the same kind of avenues. It’s so lovely to have friends who just come over, and sit and talk for a couple hours, and lovelier that we can sit on the deck now. It was warm enough today, after it quit raining. I’ll miss that in Florida. I’ll have to do it on the phone, lol.

But I won’t miss the cold, or the snow, or work. Or the men here who tried to kill my spirit.

I got a FB friend request from a man I talked to last year, when S was playing one of his games with me. We talked for about a month on and off, and then I was back with S, and let it fade away. Nice guy. Good looking. A writer, like myself. It was nice to hear from him. He’s writing poetry now he says, and said he will send me some. Told him I’ve fallen in love with haiku. We had a pleasant conversation. He’s envious of my Florida move lol. As I recall, we had some pretty intense, kind of intimate conversations back then, not like I had with Scott, but intimate, beyond the surface. He and I never met, but who knows, maybe we will. Might be fun. Talking to him was always a nice diversion.

I have a chicken apple meatloaf in the oven. Wrapped in bacon, lol. Bacon makes everything better, right? Seasoned with parsley and lemon thyme out of my herb garden. I made chicken salad yesterday, used my chives from the garden. I get a real kick out of that. I wish I had time for a bigger garden, but maybe in FL, where the growing season is year round.

Tomorrow I start training my replacement at work. I feel like she’s jumping into a mess…I’m so far behind, but that’s the way it is with that job, so I guess she might as well figure that out from the beginning. Gonna be an exhausting day. I can do it. I’ve been sleeping well lately. No sleep robbing issues. My stomach is still a problem, but it’s being managed now at least. I see the dr on Friday, and she’ll probably send me to a gastro guy. My medicare starts June 1, so all that will be way cheaper for me.

Gotta fill out the forms for my mother’s estate tonight and mail them tomorrow, and check that off my list of stuff. Good to put things in the “done” column. Some big today, some small today. But “done” though.

Love and light.