I have been messaging Scott on his blog. Before you gasp, please know you will laugh by the end of this story.
As I said in a previous blog, I had a momentary lapse yesterday an texted him. And true to his character, he ignored it. Now I’d understand his ignoring it if he hadn’t over three or 4 weeks attempted to reach me with texts, blog messages, comments and following me on my blog. Which he just did again a week ago. He makes a point, regularly, of making sure his presence in the world is known to me. (As if I need to be reminded, I still feel the energetic connection quite strongly.)
Let me also say I responded to his basal communication with open honest and heartfelt responses. Which he then ignored, because God forbid, he should face the truth about his sleazy behavior.
For instance when I responded to his first communication saying “I’ve missed you” he responded “you sure have a funny way of showing it. “. Which would leave me to believe he would have liked me to show that I missed him without addressing his shoddy treatment of me with regard to the things he told and shared with The jealous one, to make her more jealous.
Well no. That wasn’t going to happen. But still, he tried calling late at night, messaged through the blog st 2:15 am…whatever.
When he ignored my nice fairly loving, in an unconditional way, text yesterday I decided turnabout is fair play, and started making comments on his blog. Telling him that he was behaving badly, that it doesn’t seem it should be a big deal to say hi, or say he’s trying to work things out with the jealous one so would I just leave him alone, or whatever the hell his reasoning is.
Of course, he just deleted the comments.
I started laughing at his inability to communicate at an adult level. Sent him a couple more. This is the second to last one.
So this one was deleted in about 5 minutes. I left him one more. Said “damn, you’re quick. But then maybe it’s just me. I always could get you to respond quickly”. Alluding to other matters, lol. That the jealous one couldn’t do for him.
When I checked a few minutes later, he had made his blog private. LMAO. I’m pretty sure I was the only one who knew about it anyway. Although. Who knows, maybe he got her involved and maybe she’s trying to forgive him and let him back in. Whatever. Just think it’s funny that a guy who created and used the blog only as a way to get to me, now made it private. The guy who didn’t really care about me used it as a way to reach me, while not caring about me according to the jealous one. Lol.
As a result of his childish boorish behavior, I am now reminded who he really is. The jealous one is so welcome to him. Ick. I didn’t think she was that stupid but I could be wrong. After all she spent 15 years of her life with a guy who could do what he did. And more, that I’ve been decent enough not to expose here. And he is now deleted and blocked, maybe forever more. Lol.
Guaranteed he’s still reading this blog in secret though. Lol. Well, here’s your narcissistic supply for today Scott. This ones on me.
Love and light everyone (even you Scott and the jealous one…)
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The narcs just prove who they are, time and time again. Good that you blocked him. He shouldn’t get any more supply from you… 💜
I’ve made a new pact with m
…contnued; I have made a new pact with myself, that I will go for No Contact for 6 months in a row. And after those 6 months I will evaluate if I think it is worth breaking NC or if I should just keep on with it.
I believe I will make it this time. (Not counting involuntary contact, like if he should be waiting outside on the street).
I am determined not to feed the vampire anymore of my blood. 😉
I hope to succeed.
I hope you stay away too. Hugs 💜
I hope so. At least he’s really good at reminding me that he’s not the guy I was so in love with. Consistently he reminds me what a cruel cold man he is. How he still can’t speak the truth, or stand in his story. Makes it easy for me to slap myself and say “WTF were you thinking????” I knew I’d have myself back this morning and I did. Grateful that he’s consistently s creep.
He’s proved it quite many times now. I know we can become insecure and go back / reach out “just to see”. Best case senario it just annoys us, and we get more proof. Worst case scenario, they manage to really mess with us or our feelings once again/ hurt us. So I do hope you know now what he is, and that this is all you will ever get out of him. He is a narc and will never be different… Even IF he suddenly turned around and were very nice and charming…. it would just be an act to draw you back into the darkness.
They say that every time we reach out or go back to narcs, after a relationship has ended, they just devalue us more and more and more…. That has been correct for me, the narc has barely been able to hide his disdain and attitude of HIM being on the moral high ground etc.
Infuriating… and I think it seems to be true for S. aswell! Just LOOK at the arrogance of his answer. Really let it sink in, how extremely arrogant and hurtful his behavior is, first with an arrogant answer, and then all the Silent Treatment and blocking YOU on his blog, by making it private??
I don’t pray. But I do now, I pray that you stay away. This all pisses me off and makes my heart hurt for you. Hugs!! xoxo
Yeah. I DO pray, lol. Yes the arrogance, the screwed-up-ness, the inability to stand up and be counted fir the actions he alone created, to feel remorse for the lies he told. He’s like the words to Rihanna’s song, “you’re only sorry you got caught.” I remember his cold eyes when he told me, last fall when I was hysterical just finding out about Betty, “why can’t I have one woman on Wednesday and another one on Saturday?” He truly believes he should be able to. That he’s that great. He’s angry with me I’m sure, because in the end I forced the truth to the table, and have continued to post about it. I’m gonna guess he’s been trying to get Betty back in his fold and she read the blog about how he was in contact with me.
Life’s tough when you’re an ass. lol. Whatever. It was just a momentary lapse on my part. But I think it will be the last one I have.
We all have those lapses after being with a narc. It is just so unfathomable to us, how they behave. Anyway the lapses aren’t too bad, as long as we ask ourselves the important and tough questions after, like: What did I really hope to achieve with this contact? Am I not moving in the realm of toxic hope right now?
Why is it that I don’t trust my own judgment which has already told me this is a narcissist?
(Etc).
I have done that to myself lately. And come to realize that I needed to do a pact with myself and “police” myself/force myself to Just.Stop. Hence my pact with myself about 6 months NC and re-evaluating every 6 months. I think I will find after 6 months that I don’t want to risk upsetting my calm and “happier” life again, so will likely continue with NC. (Makes it easier in my head not to say “forever”) hugs.
It’s crazy too, that when the episode is over, he gives me the creeps. I shudder to think where I’d be if he actually responded. So stupid. I just can’t wait to be moved. Temptation will be gone forever, and really it feels gone now. Yuck. Heebie Jeebies lol.
This is Scott, everyone. A real gem, isn’t he?
Wow! I can understand why Deb got rid of you. You’re a real prize! Why don’t you crawl back into the gutter where you belong?
You’re calling HER a sick fuck? Never once has she ever said anything like this about you. Who’s the sick fuck?
Thank you laurel. Now you see what I’ve been trying to deal with. As if I’d ever been anything but honest about what I’ve done with him. You all know my story, because I can stand in it and say, I did that. I did that because I loved him. I’m not embarrassed about it, not for a minute. But the man who used it to make the jealous one more jealous? What a sick fuck he is. Since we’re calling names now.
DIDN’T I TELL YOU HE WASN’T DONE? This kind of asshole doesn’t go away quietly….poor thing…Betty must be punishing him. LOL
Yrs, you did. Though I will admit I started this one. I had a lapse of memory and judgment yesterday. This is what I get for reaching out.
I was afraid of that when I read it but I was hoping it was “thinking” instead of acting. You can’t reach out to this fuck….look at how he responded. Hmm….this sounds like libel to me.
I’m gonna block him again and delete the messages. I just wanted everyone to see who he was. I will record them somewhere, but then get his energy off of my blog.
I have learned, when someone tells you the are cruel and cold. You should believe them.
No one can read your blog, Scott, it’s private, and believe me we are all smart women. We know a sick fuck when we see one. They all know I wrote for you, that you promised no one would ever see them, and that you showed them to Betty to make her jealous. You can print them, and confirm to the world what an asshole you can be. I can admit what I did, I can stand in my story. I wrote them for you because I loved you, because they were fun intimacy between us, and everyone knows that. And now they know who you are. For sure. You have confirmed what I’ve been saying.
It’s ok, we all know it’s the best you can do.
Just for the record, as if my readers didn’t know, the jealous one had to email me and tell me how you didn’t care about me, how you were only with me for the sex, how maybe you cared about me, but not the way I wanted, as if she had a fucking clue. She had to assert her position to me, as if she was part of our relationship. She’s a high school bitch and you….Idk what you are except a dark dark man. You allowed that. You allowed someone to step in and speak for you, instead of standing up and owning what you did. But enough of this. I will now block you again on here. And delete your comments. Laurel reads my blog every day, she doesn’t miss anything. I have only talked about how much I will always love you you dumb fuck. And wished you well. The jealous one, I don’t give a shit about her. I left high school a long time ago and if she has you, then I pity her. She deserves more.
Ok, I believe he’s blocked. His comments will now be marked as spam. He actually called me and left a voice mail, asking me to call him, about an hour ago. Tonight he wants to talk. LOL. Only when he’s good and ready. Reactionary. Thoughtless, cold, and yes, thank you Laura. I should have believed him the first time, a long time ago. I’d have saved myself a year of pain.
OMG, you ladies are amazing! You Go Deb!!!