Raindrops on my head

A few on my lap top too.

Time to go inside.

I was sitting out on my deck on this cloudy morning. I checked the weather first, but it just showed cloudy, not rain. So I thought I’d chance it. It’s so much nicer to sit in the fresh air, and tend to my morning coffee, my meditation with nature around me, and to write.

But as soon as I finished my email, a few sprinkles touched down, and I had to run inside. I kept the door and windows open though, for the fresh air. And will keep the tv off.

Finally, I got a good night’s sleep last night. I have such a hard time recovering from even the slightest contact with Scott, and Monday night’s was so bad. I just can’t reconcile the man who could be so vile with the one I knew.

But I believe him, now. Whatever. I have my ideas on what motivates him, but they don’t matter. That he’s motivated at all, by anything, to behave in the abominable fashion he did is statement enough for me.

As a friend said to me, “don’t forget, that he is heavily damaged. The man and his soul are poles apart.” And I never do forget that, and I always can forgive him. But I do need to stay poles away from him. LOL.

This morning, I am going to, I guess, deal with my ex and this wedding issue. I am not sure I want to tell him we’re moving. I just don’t want to deal with his input on it. He still believes that any money I have should be his, and that he’s in such dire straits because I left him and took his money. The fact that he got 25% more than me in the divorce, and all the property except our boat slip, doesn’t matter, lol. But in the interest of the coming wedding and the bride, who I love, and the rest of the family, I’ll call him and see what’s on his mind.

UGH. Another man I’d prefer to stay poles away from.

My son has gone on his Sin City (Las Vegas) vacation.  He texted me late last night, around 1:30 am, that he was there.  He was so excited. I know he’s going to have such a great adventure.  I told him before he left to at least text me every day and let me know he’s alive.  So the text I got last night was this:  “I’m not dead!.  I made it!”  LOL.

I think I’ll contact the two men on the dating site that wanted to see me when I got back from VA. Maybe it would give me something to do this weekend. Most of my friends will be celebrating Father’s Day Sunday. I think I will do some packing, some sorting. Maybe some cooking or baking. I have gongs again tomorrow. As usual, couldn’t be better timing after the chaos of this week.

Have a good day everyone. Love and light.