So, I came outside this morning, to gather my thoughts, get myself centered, by writing as usual, on my deck. It was early as usual, 6 am. I turned on the computer, and Windows had decided it was a good time to update. Said updates took an hour and a half.

How frustrating. It totally changed my mood, from feeling tentative about the day, with so much to do, to being a little pissed off. I was on WP, on my phone, but that’s hard. I hate trying to write anything much from my phone. I was on FB for awhile, and gratefully, my cousin saw me on there early, and called me, so she helped me pass about 40 minutes of the time talking.

It seems that ususally they ask you if you want to update now, or schedule it. But this time, no, it just started as soon as I opened the lap top. I guess the lesson is, to be reminded that I am in control of so little of what happens in my life, lol.

My son and I are going to go buy him a suitcase today. We have an extra carry-on bag, but not a large one. We’ve usually shared the one good large one we have. But now he will need his own, so we’re going to go to Sam’s Club and find one.

While we are together in the car, I think we’re going to call his father, and hopefully he will answer the phone. We will tell him together that we are moving. The family wedding next week is the impetus to tell him. I just don’t think it would be fair for him not to know, and get blind-sided by the news , from another family member.

He’s paying a dear price as it is, for his cruelty and abuse of us. We have recovered. We have both created wonderful lives, mostly filled with happiness. We have each other always. My poor foolish ex has no one, and although it’s his choice to be alone, I still know it would hurt him to find out from someone else that his son had moved to Colorado. I’m not sure if it would make any difference to him that I am moving to Florida. Sometimes I think that he still considers me his wife, even though we’ve been apart almost 10 years. He just has such a hard time letting go of things. His power and control issues couldn’t hold it together, and I know he is embarrassed by that, rightly or wrongly. I have no wish to add to that.

I just had a thought that maybe he would want the spare washer and dryer, and the couches in my son’s room. Where he would put them, I have no idea, but I think I’ll offer them. He does have a pick-up that he could come get them in. Although I’m sure he won’t want to come over here, to my house. I’m sure it would just anger him that I have such a nice home while he lives in an unheated cabin next door to his old house.

Sometimes it just makes me so sad to see what he’s done with his life.

When we get back from the shopping trip, I’ll be packing the rest of the weekend. I should have a really good handle on it by the end of the day tomorrow. I will hopefully be able to schedule someone to come and pick up the stuff that needs to go to the dump. I need to give my snow blower to my friend. A few other odds and ends. Gonna be a busy time from now until I leave for Denver.

It’s time to get this day underway,I can’t make up the time I lost to updates, lol.

Love and light everyone.