I am starting to feel overwhelmed, so I just did about 10 minutes of self-reiki. It helps. Not as much as I’d like, but the benefits often come throughout the day. I woke up in the middle of the night for an hour or two, making lists in my head of what I have to get done.

I have to take my car in, again, to have my mechanics go over it to make sure it’s good for the drive to FL. I took it yesterday for an oil change, and asked them to do that, but apparently he didn’t understand. So I’ll take it back this morning. Whatever.

I called my homeowners about selling the house. I gave them the closing date. Someone called me back later to talk about putting my son’s car on his own insurance, since he was on with me, bundled with the house. They gave me an estimate of $368 a month, and I about flipped out. There’s no way my son can afford that! It’s about $230 on my policy now. I was thinking I’d just leave him on with me and leave the car registered to me til he turns 25, when the rates drop.

But then I went online and got a quote for $130! Which is lower than we estimated! So we’ll go with that. I still have to find out what we need to do with the loan to transfer the car to his name. He said he’ll call them Thursday, since the loan is in his name, but I’m a co-signer.

I brought home boxes yesterday from work, and realized I grabbed the wrong size. Sheesh. I filled one more box last night.

I have to go to my atty’s and sign the power of Atty. Then I’ll have to go back and sign the deed to the house one day the week after I get back from CO.

I called the guy whose number I got from a friend, that supposedly makes dump runs. “Gus Dump Runs” lol. His voice mailbox was full. Wtf. I got the name of someone else. So I have to call them today.

I need to stay calm, somehow, and not freak out over this. All this on top of packing up the rest of the house. I just keep saying, “You will get this done, you will get this done.”

At least the heebie jeebies from talking to my ex have retreated back where they belong. I did find it interesting how I could see so much similarity between he and S yesterday. Unreal that I fell so hard for S, when he was so much like my ex. Different too, but so similar. Both have a default setting of lying. I’ll be so glad to be 1500 miles away from both of them. Forget them both. Well, honestly, I’ve forgotten my ex anyway, unless I need to talk to him about my son, or feel he should know something. I have to honor the fact that he’s my son’s father, whether or not he deserves it. S, is not quite forgotten. I still have my moments, though they are more rare.. In fact I was wishing I could just say goodbye to him. Though it’s probably a bad idea, lol.

Well, off to work. Just onward, onward. Through the maze of re-creating a life for myself and my son.  These posts are probably getting boring.  It’s just how I stay on an even, somewhat, keel, by writing it out.

Love and light.