Last night I thought I heard my son come home early, around 9, instead of 9:45 as usual. But he didn’t come in the house, so I wasn’t sure what was going on. Then, he called me, and told me that some of his friends were here, lol, they had come to say goodbye but they beat him home. LOL. By the time he got home, there were 5 of them waiting for him.

He told me how this girl he’s been seeing, who he says they are just close friends, because he is moving and they didn’t want it to go further, was coming over tonight or tomorrow, and will be here Friday morning when we leave. He said, she’s starting to lose it big time. She’s in her senior year of college, so there’s no chance she was going to follow him out there in the near future.

Anyway, the whole thing made me realize how friggin’ hard this will be for him on Friday to drive away from this house. Everything he’s ever known, tons of good friends…..OMG, I know we will both be bawling our eyes out.

This whole trip is just eating at me today. I am nervous, I am wishing so much he were coming to Florida with me. I find myself angry at his stupid father, because if he HAD a father at all, he could have stayed here and lived with him. But he’d rather go 2000 miles away than share living space with his dad.

I did my morning meditation, and it came to me to call Linda, my friend who plays the gongs. Because she gets me, probably better than anyone really, on a spiritual level. I’m going to miss the last gong bath on Thursday night because I just can’t, leaving Friday morning early. We have to pack the car etc. I have been wanting to say goodbye to her, so we talked and I’m going to go shower and go see her. I’m sure that will help me get out of this fear mode I’m in right now.

Funny, how the universe just directed me to do what would help me the most.

Love and light, all.