The Changing Vibe

My son and I have had long text conversations. He is adjusting, but still not comfortable. He said he dislikes eating dinner alone in a strange house. I said, you usually eat by yourself while on Xbox with your friends.

I know, Mom, but the vibe is different.

I get that. It’s not home.

This house does not seem like mine any longer either. Especially without him in it. I have to admit a few tears rolled down my cheeks when he said that. He chose a hard path, to leave everything he’s ever known. I could not have talked him out of it. And shouldn’t have. He’ll adjust. He’s a strong young man, and he knows what he wants.

But God, I miss him.

My friends are coming over this morning. To take a bunch of my stuff. My snow blower, weed wacker, food in my pantry and freezer. And whatever else they want that I’ve got piled up to have Salvation Army take away tomorrow.

My house will be pretty empty after tonight, except for all the boxes, containing all my possessions of a lifetime.

There is so much to do between now and Tuesday, when the movers come. I woke at 5:30 this morning, wanting to sleep longer. I’d had about 7 hours of sleep, so really, I’d had enough sleep. It was dark…….

But those lists kept writing themselves in my mind. I was thinking about the mail, and how I need to stop the mail here on Thursday, and have it forwarded. Then it occurred to me, that I’ve been having the mail from Florida forwarded here, and need to stop that. However…I’m not sure I have a mailbox up at my house. So I guess I need to just have it held in FL til I get there and deal with the mailbox. In fact, I may not need a mailbox at the street there, they may deliver it to the house. I’ll have to contact the post office there and find out.

Today I’ll get the fridge in the basement cleaned out, and vac and mop the floor. Then try to finish my clothes. I told my son I’ll be so glad to not be living out of a suitcase. I’m looking forward to seeing my sister Thursday.

Getting toward the end of this leg of the journey. The next leg, moving in, should be fun. Some of my best oldest friends will be there to help me.

Thank God for the strong friendships I’ve made during my life. Just thank God.

Love and light.

3 responses to “The Changing Vibe

  1. I’ve been thinking of you so much recently! Change is tough (even good change), and I’m sure in a few weeks you’ll be hearing much more positive things from your son. I think it’ll also get easier when you get on the move to Florida.

    Sending big hugs and much love your way! ❤ x

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