Staying Focused on What’s Real

I’m trying, really trying. To stay focused on this moment. It’s getting easier. Tim emailed me today. He just bought a smartphone the other day, and has not yet figured out how to use it so is using email until he figures out texting, lol. Very old school, but that’s perfectly ok with me. I think I’ll see him Sunday. Go watch a sunset somewhere on St. Pete Beach maybe. I told him I will leave where up to him, he has lived here many years. I have no idea where to go.

I went for my back massage/therapy today. It’s so nice, and I’m feeling so much better. My friend was going into the dr as I was leaving, so I asked her to come over and take a walk with me after. Even though I know that walking with her will cut my walk short, it was nice to catch up with her. She has so many problems, physically, but is doing so much better. She’s been working at it, and it shows.

I’m drinking too much wine tonight. I don’t know why. I think it’s just relief. Celebrating that my life is actually manifesting as I’ve dreamed of before I even got here. Taking a breath. It all settles out as it should.

Today I found out that the wood from a banyan tree is heavy. I have to carry the branches that were cut to the curb, and boy, the branches are heavy. Really glad that he cut them into small pieces! I didn’t get it all moved there, I’ll do it in two loads, so they can pick up the rest next week. As he was cutting it, it was dripping a thick white sap. It’s such a cool tree. Shallow roots that run in designs all over the yard. It’s so kind of artsy for a tree, lol. And that’s perfect for this locale.

Life is an ever-changing fluid situation, isn’t it. I think one reason I chronicle my life here in this blog, is because I want to remember, correctly, intimately, what I felt at any given time. Memory tends to taint the reality of what really happened, at least my memory does. I want to be able to see it, and know, for sure, how I got from Point A to Point B. And then let it Be.

Love and light, all.

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