Cut Him Loose

Never one to put off an unpleasant task, I sent Tim an email telling him I didn’t think I’d ever feel more than a friendship with him. As I was writing it, I realized that last night I had sent him, in reply to an email from him telling me what a great day we had, a heartfelt email saying that I felt he was trying too hard to impress me, to sweep me off my feet.  Told him I didn’t want to be swept, that I only wanted to know who he was.  I told him the day was so nice, it didn’t need to be perfect, (he wanted everything to happen just so).  I was as kind and loving as I could be.  I sent him a link to the Leonard Cohen song, Anthem.  There is a crack in everything.  Forget your perfect offering.

This morning’s email from him didn’t mention it.  As if I’d never sent it.  As if he’d not read it.  Which only reinforced what I was feeling.  That’s the kiss of death, to ignore me.  To be non-responsive to a heartfelt communication.  What justification is there for that?

It just tells me he doesn’t like, and avoids at all costs, the hard conversations.

Haven’t heard from him yet, but he often doesn’t check his email til the end of the day.  Maybe I won’t hear.  That would be the best.

Onward.  Life is beautiful.  Love and light….

8 responses to “Cut Him Loose

    • Yes exactly. It’s not something he’d feel good about in the end. I think it’s much better to decide early on if there are any possibilities. I trust my gut…if a guy kisses me and there’s not even a tiny spark, why pursue it? Thanks Juan.

  1. He could be mulling it over, thinking of what to say, how to respond. And then again, that’s not always best either, especially if something requires an emergent or timely response. Peace to you on your journey as you move forward, Deb.

  2. if you’re not feeling it you can’t force it – been there, done that. it’s not an easy decision but you do what is best for you, and you did.

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