I am going to write a fairly cryptic blog this morning, and for that I apologize. But I just want to say….I found out I was lied to again by someone close to me. Even though the lie was way in the past, it cut like a knife, a fresh wound. I don’t understand anyone’s ability to do this to another person. Nor do I want to.
I am so sick of liars in my life. Pathological, calculated, hurtful narcissistic liars. There have been many. tRump is another…as is his stupid bunch of zombie followers. It’s really difficult to watch Sean Spicer back him up when he knows everything that man says is bullshit. I laughed the other day when someone asked Jeff Sessions about some particular lie (and forgive me, I don’t remember which lie it was, there are so many) and he said, “Let me tell you something….” And hesitated, and then agreed with a Yes, that whatever it was was not true. He stammered, and shook and looked very uncomfortable, shifty eyed and everything, but he just couldn’t do the lie thing again. The guy is trying to build his credibility, since he’s AG, I’m guessing, and that’s gonna be an arduous, if not impossible task as it is.
My ex so enjoyed manipulating others thoughts, that he lied for the sheer joy of watching himself manipulate people. He could make up entire scenarios, that went on for days and weeks until you realized that the whole thing was based on a lie he made up to get you to behave in a certain way. Just for the sheer joy he got from controlling other people’s minds. He could not talk to anyone without lying. It was incredible to watch. And of course, as he lied himself into a corner, was his complete undoing. Massively sociopathic. S lied as a cover-up to his devious and devastating-to-me lifestyle. It wasn’t so well planned out, not so sytematic. He just lied. He wonders why I call him a narcissist. Geezus. Look in the damn mirror. To hurt people for your own gain, to refuse to be accountable, to continue this behavior after a meaningless apology, to think you are the only one whose feelings matter in a relationship to the point of doing this crap over and over? With both men, the total inability to feel empathy?
Well, I’m beating a dead horse. I’ll stop. Just saying, those two men….and their lies just blow my mind. I’m lucky to be well away from it all.
Today I’ll be getting things ready for my bestie from CT to arrive tomorrow. It will be so much fun. The weather is supposed to be perfect this weekend. I’ll forget about the liars, hang out with my lovely friend and my peeps down here and my sister. Get some good beachtime in, go out and eat some really good food, and relax…..Sounds like heaven to me, lol.
So, at the end of the day, or night, as it is, I am still so blessed with wonderful people in my life, and to have manifested the life I want. Sans the liars.
Love and light to everyone.