Contentment is not something I’ve felt often. I am an Aries….I know what I want, I go for what I want. I don’t give up until either I get it, or I am sure that I’ve done everything I can to get it, but it’s just not going to happen. In either case, I don’t sit with it too long. If I’ve gotten it, I’ll set a new goal, and try to move forward along that path. The same, if I couldn’t get what I wanted, I will set a new goal, but move along that different, new path. Adjusting.
Every once in a great while, though, I find contentment. Happy with where I am, and not particulary in a mood to move in any direction. Just luxuriating in the present moment, the way things are. The is-ness of life. What a lovely thing it is.
This morning I sit my comfy, cushy couch, reading emails, and FB. I am a little tired this morning, I could have used a couple more hours of sleep. I never could sleep though, once the sun is up. I can take a nap easily enough. In fact, I remarked to my sister the other day how easily I can fall asleep for an hour-long nap, but how hard it is to fall asleep at night sometimes, or stay asleep, or get back to sleep when I wake up. What is that all about? But I digress.
I am on my comfy couch, laptop in my lap, and I feel content, even though I’m tired. I am happy at the moment with the way things are. I love my home, I have friends and family, I have a kind and loving man in my life who treats me like something rare and special. Tonight is open mic, he’s going with me. I invited him but told him it was completely up to him, if he felt ready for “prime time”, lol, because basically he will meeet all of my friends. He wants to go. He has a willingness to be vulnerable, which in my experience, is a rare thing for a man.
So far, he has only deposited marbles in my jar. He’s not dumped any out. Each day I am able to trust a little more, and fear a little less. I hope I’ve done the same for him.
My friend in upstate NY, who is a psychic, intuitive, Reiki master and has helped me through a number of things in my life gave me a wall hanging with Gandhi’s quote “Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.” I think that also defines contentment.
I have to say too, that I’m glad to see the tRump presidency imploding. I have said that I felt that’s what would happen. And it comes to be. No one, not even a powerful billionaire, can continue to lie, and decieve, to speak without thinking and put feeding their ego as a top priority, and not eventually become undone by it. As humans we are hardwired for connection and compassion. If we deny that over and over, we are doomed to constantly repeat the same mistakes, never learning the lesson.
My life is, right now, what I dreamed of. I guess that is the physical law of attraction, the way thoughts become things. It reminds me of when I finally got my supreme court decision, and some money, and moved into the house I’d been dreaming of for so long. Will this last? I have no way of knowing. It’s possible to set a new goal, I am realizing, and move toward it contentedly. There is no need of huge upheavals, and drama. I can start where I am, and make it better each day.
Food for thought. Love and light to all.