Yesterday, I said at some point after all the Christmas festivities were over, and we were sitting at Dan’s bar playing Gin, that this was the best Christmas ever. He looked at me, and while he was happy to hear it, reminded me that I’d had a lot of good Christmases since I left my ex.
He was right. I got to spend a couple Christmases with my family, for the first time in 30 years, when my son came to live with me, 18 months after I left my ex. It was wonderful and warm, and spent in the most picturesque home of my sister, a log cabin that is on the National Register of Historic Places, with snow outside and all. My sis and brother-in-law, my niece, my mom, my brother-in-law’s daughter and her husband. I’m so glad to have those memories, and that my son has some good memories of a family Christmas.
When I bought my house, my own house in CT, we had nice Christmases there, my son and I. Putting up our own tree, decorating the house, and sharing meals in peace and quiet. It was a dream come true.
Last year I had my first Christmas in Florida, which was another dream come true, with my sister. It was our first Christmas without our mother, and I think we channeled her in somehow. It was 80° and sunny, and we spent the day in the pool, and the hot tub, and vegging out. It was a gloriously luxurious way to spend Christmas Day.
Yesterday, Dan and I spent our first Christmas together, and it was such a pleasure, such an incredibly wonderful thing to be able to share all the wonderful feelings of Christmas with someone I love and who loves me. It seems, right now, to be the pinnacle of my dreams, to have happened.
I felt so good about it that I put up a pic of us together on FB for my profile pic (with Dan’s blessing) and changed my status to “In a relationship”, something I never thought I’d do. It’s just that this morning I want to shout it to the world, that finally at 66 years old I am with the man who I’ve said is walking toward me for years.
I guess I am very lucky, very blessed. I think I’m the poster child for manifesting what you think about. Both of us remarked how amazing it was to spend Christmas, and all the holidays with someone you love, completely drama free. We have both had enough drama for 15 lifetimes, so it is incredible to both of us that it’s possible to be in such a loving relationship that has none.
What a difference a year makes!
Love and light, everyone.