I’ve had a lot of company this week. I was kind of dreading it, but it’s been easier than I expected. I’ve been sleeping 7-8 hours a night on average, without any aids such as a couple medicinal hits of pot, or an Ambien. That’s awesome for me. It’s where I want to be. I think I’m able to sleep because I am grounded, I have accepted what is, and I can look at the past without regret, but without longing either.
Yesterday we went to the Sunken Gardens in St. Petersburg. They were created in a sinkhole 100 years ago, and are just beautiful. I’ve been before, and wanted to take my friends who is a consummate gardener. She really enjoyed it. Then we went to Trader Joes, which is up the street from there a few blocks, just because she had never been. I didn’t think I needed anything, but spent $33 anyway, lol.
We came home, each of us took a short nap, and then made dinner of some meatballs I had in the freezer, fresh raviolis, and a salad. We headed for open mic. My friend was a music teacher for 35 years up in the Adirondacks, and still leads chorales, etc. She really enjoyed the open mic because the people who perform are really good musicians and there is a huge genre of music played for the 3 hours. She met a few more of my friends, two of which were having their birthdays and people had brought cake, which was really good. We all sang happy birthday to the accompaniament of cajun music by the Gulfport Swamp Opera. It was so much fun! We hadn’t really expected to stay the whole 3 hours, but ended up doing it anyway.
So it was a really fun day, and I know we both enjoyed it. Tonight, her last night, two of my friends are playing at a local restaurant in an outdoor venue, so we are going, and get a pizza or something and watch them. Dan may show at this venue, because he’s friends with them, and enjoys their music. But I’m fine with that, as long as he’s not sitting at my table. I still have some anger mixed with the feeling that this has been coming on a long time, and he wasn’t honest about it. But whatever, I’m getting past it and am beginning to see how different we are, and how it never would have worked anyway.
Pretty soon (tomorrow afternoon) I will have my house back to myself. I have some things I need to do, like mow the lawn, and practice my new soundbath experience. The weather seems to be returning to normal Florida January weather in the 60’s and 70’s. It’s lovely. As my friend said, “Wow, it’s so nice to walk outside at night and it’s not freezing…..”
All is well in paradise, lol. Hope all is well with all of you. Love and light.