My company is all gone, for a couple of weeks until my son and his family come. The last one left this morning, as her flight kept getting delayed due to a snowstorm in upstate NY. I told her to stay here Saturday night and go home yesterday morning when the weather cleared, which she did, and was really glad about it. It’s nice to have the house back to myself, but it also seemed so quiet.
The quiet today gave me a chance to get a lot done. I got a bunch of housework done that needed doing, vacuuming under the bedroom furniture, 3 loads of laundry washed dried and folded, and errands for miscellaneous stuff I needed at the hardware store and drug store. I practiced the sound healing new stuff I’m working on until I was gonged out, lol. But that was actually good for me. I considered going out for a little bit last evening but chose to stay home. I was tired from the day, and it was a bit chilly out, and I would have been at an outdoor restaurant. Instead, I stayed home, watched a couple new to me series on Amazon, Modern Love and The Practice, and The Marvelous Mrs. Maizel. Just what I needed. I slept well, and even though I’m up early (5:30) I am rested.
I have realized that with Dan’s departure, I work harder at staying busy, and getting stuff done. I think that’s only partially because I want to fill the space that he took up in my life. That hole is getting smaller. It’s also because when you move between houses, you don’t get a lot of the nitty-gritty stuff done. So the house is looking better, I’ve been able to get stuff put away and thinned out a little bit.
I do have to see him on Thursday. He’s coming over to get the boat and take it to the marina, drop it in the water, and then put it back on the trailer correctly, which he will need my help to do. Then I can get it cleaned up and try to sell it. It runs perfectly well now, as long as it’s not kept in the water where stuff grows on it so fast. I am not looking forward to doing this with him, and he has expressed that he dreads it. I know that is partially because we have to do it together, but more because he feels like he doesn’t know what he’s doing. I’m going to shut down my emotions as I do every time I see him, just staying mindful, focused on the task at hand. I don’t want to get back together with him, I don’t want to engage in any conversation with him except what’s necessary to get this done. I’ll get through it.
This morning a guy is coming to give me an estimate on hurricane-proofing my front door. I will get a big discount on my homeowners’ insurance once I do that because I’ve done all the windows. My front door, I’m guessing, is as old as my house, and suits it. But it’s an odd size and small. Anyway, because of that I am not replacing the door, which would be pretty expensive. Then I’m going to my friend’s chair yoga class for the first time. She is the one who helps me with the sound healing. I’ve been wanting to go forever, but I was usually at Dan’s on Monday morning, Then I was sick, then I had company, yada yada yada. Today I’m going. She believes it will help with my flexibility.
I feel I’m moving forward, at times like light speed, at times much slower. But still, the momentum is forward. Like a meme I have shared on FB: Don’t look back. You’re not going that way.
Love and light to everyone.