The Changing Seasons of My Life

I’ve come to realize that spring here in FL is often like early October in New England. Cool nights, warm days, leaves turning gold and brown and falling from the trees. My deck is constantly covered by leaves. But of course the big difference is in New England, the weather is prepping you for winter, getting colder with each passing day. And when the leaves fall up there, you know you won’t see them again for 6 months. Here, it gets consistently warmer. And the leaves will be out again by end of March.

Every day I have spent at least an hour out on the deck reading. Having dried leaves fall on me, and the shade my banyan tree affords me is so much less, as it makes room for it’s new leaves. It’s been in the high 70’s and low 80”s here, and very dry, for Florida. Just felt heavenly to sit out there in the afternoon. I’m almost done with the book I’m reading, Tibetan Peach Pie by Tom Robbins. I was introduced to him when an old boyfriend loaned me his book Jitterbug Perfume, which is a real fantastical, but somehow believable (almost) story, and Robbins has such a great way of writing. I could so relate to him. Not what he says, but the way he says it in Jitterbug. The Peach Pie is his autobiography, and although he’s 20 years older than me (which means he’ll be 90 soon) his life was so out of the norm, from his childhood til now, as best I can tell, it’s a wonderful story and he has a wonderful way of telling it. He’s written a lot of books, so if you don’t know him, get acquainted, it’s well worth it!

Anyway, sitting on the deck, reading Tom Robbins, the leaves falling off my tree and my Christmas Cactus in bloom, a soft breeze and sunlight casting such definitive shadows across my back yard has been heaven. I have decided to cut my Wednesday girls get-togethers back to one a month. There are just too many other things I want to spend time on, and I can’t give up one day a week any more. I host it, always. I want to get my reiki practice ready to go by the end of March. I have another class in how to make crystal reiki grids to use when I do reiki. Dan and I need to practice for a sound healing we’re doing in just over a week. And I want to write more, and try to do some walking. Not to mention the boat that sits in my yard, needing to be prepped to have someone take it away and sell it for us. And cooking, and baking, and cleaning, and laundry, and so much stuff, I need that 7th day of the week to be mine.

As for walking, I am walking better, and with less pain all the time. I am going to try to walk a half a block, lol, maybe today. Dan will be here, maybe he’ll go with me.

Another change for me recently is my dislike of all social media. I still have accounts with FB, Twitter, Instagram. Tho the only one I look at at all is FB. I was also given an invite to Clubhouse, by a friend who wants me to listen to her “room” and engage in the conversation there. But I’m sooooo not interested in more social media. Geezus. Clubhouse is like a live podcast anyone who is a member can join in on. I tried, for my friend’s sake, but it doesn’t interest me to listen to a bunch of people telling their stories of trauma that led to a spiritual path, I’ve done it for too long, listened to to many stories, or more accurately, read their stories. I told my friend not to send me an invite unless she checks with me first to see if I even have time with it, but she sent it anyway. Then kept texting me in the morning asking me to go on right then and listen. When I told her I couldn’t right then for whatever reason she kept telling me I just have to listen. When I finally told her I don’t want to listen, especially when I first get up, she got a little put out with me, and I haven‘t heard from her since. But it’s ok, it is whatever it is right now. I think I’ve let my own interests go for far too long, and wasted far too much time, on FB. I will keep my account open, but I don’t expect to be spending more than 10 or 15 minutes once or twice a day. And the only reason for that is sometimes friends, in real life friends, post something I’d want to know, so I scan it looking for friend’s posts like that. After all these years though, I’m ready to retreat into my own world, and simply get involved in those things that I love.

So life is changing for me. I think I’ve grown, and kind of realized how I want to spend the days, and years, I have left on this earth. And it’s not on FB or any of the others. It’s not obsessing over the political state we are in, especially now that we don’t have a friggin’ lunatic running the country. Like I told Dan last night, I don’t feel like I have infinite days left on this earth, so I want to live my life as fully as possible, doing what I feel passionate about. I’m grateful, really grateful for the time I’ve spent alone so I could actually see where I am at now that I’ll be fully vaccinated, and my physical state is so improved.

I hope everyone is well, safe, getting vaccinated. I’m so looking forward to life returning to normal, as much as it ever will.

Love and light to everyone.

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