Is something a loss if you never really had it?
Or if what you had was not what you thought it was?
Or what you wanted?
Is it loss because you dreamed of it,
And the dream died?
In an instant….
fighting for it
didn’t make it so
Nor begging
Nor asking,
Nor longing.
It never was.
I think it’s loss
Still.
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yes, it is still a loss, a loss of what was and a loss of what could have been…. both hard to take. love you M.
Thanks. Struggling today. Xo