Slowing the Spin

Better today. Not as broken.  I spoke to a couple men on the phone from a dating site. One was a possibility. One could only talk about himself. I will probably meet the other one when I get back from the wedding.  Just knowing that there are possibilities helps.  

My friend A has gone camping, and apparently is out of cell phone range somewhere on the rio grande River. I kinda miss his consistent sunrise and sunset pictures, and good mornings and good nights. I don’t know how long he’ll be gone, but I’m sure I’ll hear from him as soon as he gets back. 

I missed S this morning. , but I’m dealing with it. I think I’d like to be friends, at some point. But there is a lot to work through even to be friends. Like I say, he’s a cool guy. I don’t think he really knows what he wants.  I would be OK as long as I was seeing, as in dinner or coffee, or a movie,  other men too, so I could stay unattached to him.  I’m getting there. Anyway, he’s made his choice so not sure how good of friends we could ever be, the sexual tension between us has always made my head spin. Never had it with anyone else. But those days are over.  

Still confused, but working my way to balance. 

10 responses to “Slowing the Spin

  1. Glad to read this. Get out there, meet those men and enjoy what they have to offer. Just remember that none of them will be S, and that’s both a good and bad thing…!

  2. Sorry for the double comment, but I came across a quote today which I’ve just shared on my blog…I thought it very applicable to your situation, too…

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