Just got home from the gongs, it was lovely as usual. I was fairly relaxed going in, and may have dosed off for a bit. Hard to believe with all that sound going on, but it happens. Not sure if I was sleeping or just somewhere else.
Texted with the new guy a lot today. There have been no moments, yet, of wondering “why did he say that?” Won’t know if there’s any connection til Saturday. I’d like to talk to him on the phone, I may tell him that tomorrow. Idk. I hope I’m not too outside the box for him, lol.
I was driving home tonight and kept thinking about the weekends I spent with Scott before Betty showed up again in his life. Sometimes I just don’t understand why he was so quick to give it up. Even if he wouldn’t let me go, he gave up that time together. We’d make love before we slept, and when we woke up, then go out on some excursion, and then usually take a nap before I drove home, usually late in the day, and make love once more. It was sweet, and easy. Seems like it might have been worth a second thought? Well, apparently not. I hope I can find that again with someone.
Gongs make me introspective, help me put things in perspective in my life. I wasn’t longing for Scott, I was just missing that closeness, with someone. I know who he is. Maybe I’m longing for the guy he was, then. I don’t know. But that guy disappeared, and hasn’t been around for a long long time.
Well, off to bed. love and light.