In a Weird Place

weird places

In a weird place tonight. I got the offer I wanted, Cash, I got the closing date I wanted. I am selling the furniture with the house, at least the furniture I can’t take with me. So I don’t have to try to sell it. I got the schedule figured out so I can drive to Colorado with my son. I gave my boss my exit date, August 26. I’ll be retired.

And I am, at the moment, scared. So much change. Just, so much. All of it orchestrated by me. It would have been so nice to have a partner to do this with. But I don’t have one. Bad choices, I’ve made bad choices when it came to men.

I’ll get through it, I always do. I’ll pick my way through the path, I’ll get done what needs to be done. I’ve never had a problem barreling through the work that needed to be done.

Unsettled tonight. Ungrounded. Unusual for me. Think I’ll just go to bed.

Love and light

8 responses to “In a Weird Place

  1. Since you are feeling ungrounded. Rightly so because of the unknown and embarking on a new life… I will leave you with a poem by Hafiz…
    God and I have become
    like two giant fat people living
    in a tiny
    boat.

    We
    keep bumping into
    each other
    and laughing

  2. Congratulations on the sale. Congratulations on your upcoming retirement. As you enter this new phase of your life, I hope you’ll be able to fill the empty spaces where anxieties used to be with happiness, excitement, and peace, and not new anxieties. 🙂

  3. You got what you wanted when you wanted it. It’s all on time. Take it in the best way you know how. It’ll be all right.

    🙂 You have made it this far in life breathing on your own. You’ll make it even more.

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