Riding a wave through the stars
Seeing you,
Seeing us,
Seeing memories.

Remembered
Pain,
Anger,
Sorrow
Fear.

Then love.

High in the cosmos,
Just observing
how it was to love you.
How it blended with
the other parts of my life.
No judgment,
Just seeing.

I see my mother,
My father
My sisters,
And others that I have loved.
Some still with me
Some not.
All part of the story.

You were part for such a short time,
Yet your chapter is the longest, right now.
Will that change?
Will that chapter shrink in importance?
Maybe.
I can’t know.

Life’s a journey
You were part of it.

New memories on the cusp
Ready to spill into my pathway.

As I rode the waves,
I only felt the love,
Always took the love with me.
The layer that buffered me and the story.

I’ll hold onto the love,
And let the rest go.
Peace in my heart.

This is the best I can do to describe the gong bath last night.  Pretty deep and powerful meditation.  It’s all good.  Love is all that’s real.

Picture from google images.

I’m remembering….

How you’d always want me around
When I was preoccupied elsewhere.

Oh you were so sly,
So convincing.

I was dancing to the strumming
Of your inner guitar
I was hopping to the gate
With the key to let you in.

My, how you teased me,
How you’d spin me around,
Whirling, and make me
Come up delightfully dizzy.
Asking for more.

I didn’t want what it was you were offering.
It took me a long time to find out what it was.

I wanted something different,
You just wanted me to keep wanting you.

And I did.

For a long long time.

Til I realized I was dancing alone.
That only you knew the music,
And you weren’t sharing.

Keeping me stuck as is, as was,
Where was, how was

Ahhhh still, you made me laugh,
That was always worth something.

You made me feel like a woman,
That too….was always worth something.

I loved making you feel like a man.
“I’ll make you glad you’re a man”
Was what I used to tell you.

I loved opening Pandora’s Box,
And seeing what flew out of it between us.

Still, though, my feet got tired
Running in the circles of your endless delusions.
And obsessions
And needs……

Inertia and gravity held me in place
at your disposal
At your service.
Holding you steadily in my heart.

Until that state,the inertia, was changed
By an external force.
I didn’t know what the force was.
You did, but you weren’t telling.

I know now…….

It changed forever.
At that moment.
Except….love, love stays.

No one can go back.
The past can’t be undone.
Just tell me, now, in this moment

Was it the best you could do then?
Is it the best you could do now?

Or is there some greater force,
An external force,
That will change things forever
For you too?

Inertia
At the mercy,
But no longer.

Perceive
Feel, taste, touch
Open hearts
Embrace the joy.

Perceive
Oneness,
Inclusiveness
Embrace the joy.

Perceive
No more pain
No more anger
Embrace the joy.

Perceive
Love and belonging
The greater circle
Embrace the joy.

Perceive
That you are loved and
That love never dies
Embrace the joy.