Confusion and chaos
Beginning to unravel
Into some comprehensible circumstance.
I want my close friend,
Most of all.
What we shared,
He can’t share with her,
she was not a part of it.
He has said this…
that it was ours and our alone.
Nor is she part of the close friendship we share.
He knows my secrets,
I know his.
They are ours to keep.
I will lose something here,
But it was something I had already decided to lose.
Now, I have gained back my close friend,
Now I can still have the laughter,
The connection without pain.
I’m still scared,
At the change.
I’ve never traveled this road before
And I still love him.
But it seems safe, for now.
It is easier on my heart,
Going to go to the beach tomorrow
And re-find my center.
That where it usually is,
Hovering over the sea,
knowing that I will know where to look for it.
It is easier to contemplate a future that includes him
In some way
than one that doesn’t.
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“I will lose something here,
But it was something I had already decided to lose.”
How profoundly true. How tragically true. Your love is…
Thank you for this. It was right at the time. But not all the facts were known then. I would have been happy tho, if it had ended that way. I do miss him from time to time.