Early morning sunrise is beautiful this morning. I have been up since well before dawn, but I slept well last night.
I did my final day of the Deepak Chopra 21 day free meditation this morning. When it was done I saw this sunrise, like a simple gift from the universe.
Every morning I wake up a little farther from the chaos of the last few weeks, and it usually lessens throughout the day. I am not slipping backward, which is a huge thing. I have no more rogue waves knocking me down. Nothing pushing me backward.
Grateful this morning, I guess. Just grateful. There is so much to be grateful for, even the hard lessons. I can see it all as a gift. Even though at times, I still pick my jaw up off the floor at the depth of deception that one man can create, he deceived himself worst of all. His deception made me smarter, and wiser. I have grown from the experience. As long as we do that, it’s never a waste.
It’s only a 3 day work week this week. Hopefully I will go to the sweat lodge Saturday. I know it would be really good for me. I feel blessed that there are so many healing opportunities around here to bring me back to myself. Every day I remember more who I was, and who I am.
Thanksgiving will be quiet as usual. Just me and my son. I’m grateful he’ll be home all day. It is the first time in a few years he has not had to go into work in the late afternoon to work overnight for Black Friday. In fact he has the day off, his new job is not a hot spot for Christmas shopping.
Been texting with A this morning, since early, which is really early for him. He is telling me about his son’s girlfriend, coming to see him from Maine, to New Mexico, talking about moving out there. I think he is wistful, that I have no interest in doing that. I have always told him I could never live in the desert. I wouldn’t mind visiting, but probably not him for more than a day or two. I love him, but it’s a love that’s better from a distance than up close.
I’m still sure the up close one is headed my way.
Love and light.