One man is mad with power. Unable to feel empathy. Disrespectful of everyone’s wishes, desires, love, care….dishonors everyone, in the pursuit of what he wants. Never accountable for the destruction that he leave behind him with every footstep. Convincingly, he tells people what they want to hear, and when they believe his false story, he uses them to do his bidding. So they will fill his need, his desire. He offers them some future compensation that he knows he will never give them. Pretty soon everything he says is a lie, and darkness surrounds him and follows him and envelops anyone who tries to love him.
One man is vulnerable, sweet, loving, fearless. He feels others pain, more acutely than his own, and is there. Beside them. Wiping their tears, reminding them they have worth. Sees people at their worst and tells them that’s when he loves them the most. He never misses a chance to connect. To be kind. To show his love, even if he knows you don’t feel quite the same. The light follows him everywhere, every word, every breath. If he goes into the dark, he brings the light with him.
With the first man, the love was fire, and now it’s ash. It’s a gray film on the heart, all the loving fire has been dulled, and burned out, burned away. The fire of lies, and deception reduced it all to nothing but powdery ash, waiting for the first rain to wash it into the ground, to begin transformation into something else.
With the he second man, the love was cool, and now it builds. He is easy, his warmth crosses the miles. His unconditional love floats on the breeze and caresses my soul. She thinks, why….do I deserve this? It’s not to ask….
There is no asking, why, for either of them.
One chooses disconnection, disinterest, disharmony, solitary solitude. Why? It’s not to ask, it’s his to tell, if he ever chooses to. Or to hide. Or to hide from.
One chooses love, connection, compassion, kindness richness of life. His light just shines. Why? It’s not to ask. It’s to accept. Why? It’s his to tell if he chooses. Or to live. He doesn’t care why, he just is.
Two men, a perfect dichotomy. Everything one is, the other is not. The ying and the yang, clear in front of me. I rest. Too long in the darkness, I seek the light.