Maggie is home, and a little freaked out, but seems ok. She had a bandage over where her IV was on her front leg, and luckily my cousin came by and helped me get it off of her. I have to give her some pain medication with some food now, before I go to bed. Just so grateful that they were able to fix her problem, and I didn’t have to face that hard decision.
I have a lunch date for Saturday, with that nice man I was talking to last night. Tonight we’re texting. So far, I really like him. He seems interested, you know….asks questions, seems sweet natured, very masculine though. Is good looking too, from his pictures. And tall, I like tall men, because I’m 5’7″. I like men who are taller than me by a good amount. My ex was 6’1″ or2″. Scott was 6′ I think. We’re going to a new Mexican restaurant. He grew up in the town I work in, but doesn’t live there now.
It’s cool, I feel like there could be a connection with this man, I sense the possibility. Like we might like each other….maybe a lot, who knows? It’s nice to be looking forward, for sure, not backward.
It lets me pause, to feel like a desirable woman again. Not someone’s second choice, not rejection, not pain, not anger. To see a path in front of me of possibilities. Even if it’s not with this man, I am lifted into the possibilities again. It’s nice to have someone excited to have lunch with me. And I’m excited to have it with him. And that’s all I need to know right now.
I don’t mean to be gushing, because I haven’t even met him yet. It’s been 4 months since Scott and I broke up, it’s been almost 2 since I found out she’d been in his life 6 months. I need to move on, and I’m just happy to have this chance, this little crack that might allow the light to come in, and make me glow again.
I have a gong bath tomorrow. I love that I am going with no huge issues to deal with. I had the twin flame thing for a few days, it was really upsetting me, but now, it’s just a part of that relationship, which is past, over…. I’m not going to try to guess when we will meet again. It doesn’t matter, it just doesn’t matter. He’s still got his journey, he’s always had it. He and I are no where near the same place, and I don’t see us being in the same place in this lifetime. My head and my heart are open to whatever happens, but I think there is a better possibility with the new guy than Scott that we will connect in this lifetime. I wish him well, I hope he can rise, I hope all good things for him.
Happy tonight. Think I’ll go float to bed, and see if I can dream a sweet dream for a change.