For some reason I am a little unsettled this morning. Partly because Maggie is not herself, and I shouldn’t expect her to be, but I’m waiting for her to be her old self.
Partly it is from being nervous about my lunch date Saturday. Nervous-excited, but nervous. I will have to explain pretty early about selling my house and moving. I live in the present, and I just feel if I get attached to someone before I go, that it will work itself out. For example we could have a Florida and a Connecticut house if we don’t want to be apart. So it doesn’t worry me, but it might put someone else off. I remember Scott even asking what will we do when you move? I just kept saying, are you going to work forever? Would you not want to come see me in Florida? Couldn’t I come see you? And in between we could have our time alone? He always seemed to be ok with that thought. He even brought it up after he was seeing Betty, before I knew. Why, I don’t know, now, probably just part of the elaborate ruse he was creating. I do think that the two relationships were separate in his head. I think he was able to shut one of us out when he was with the other. So it may have been an honest question at the time. Whatever.
I think that it can work out, that’s all. I trust the universe to make happen what needs to happen.
Maybe part of the nervousness is my concern over diving into a relationship like I did with Scott. Feet first, not checking the depth of the water. Setting myself up for the kill. I just have to be true to myself. I have to be present, and mindful, and not give myself away. Mostly to remember that trust has to be earned, and to filter my feelings through the BRAVING anagram. I will say, that this new man, just in conversation, seems to be real, he’s earned a few small marbles for my marble jar already. Those small, insignificant moments….what else is there when you have only talked and not met even. The conversation seems to flow, he takes an interest, it’s not all about him. That’s worth a marble or two, lol.
The gongs will be good for me tonight, just to allow me to center and ground myself. Let whatever is causing me to be unsettled to come up, and to go. I’m reading The Untethered Soul by Mark Singer, and he talks a lot about not resisting what comes up. To let it just pass through. If it’s pain, it won’t last, and he’s right, it never does. I knew this before I read the book. I’ve always known that the way through pain is to allow yourself to feel it, for as long as you need to until you just don’t feel it anymore. It’s why I could tell Scott, this will hurt but I’ll get over it. I know what to do, I have the practice as part of my daily life.
Off to another day of work. And the gongs. See you on the flip side.
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Have a great day! Liking the sound of this new man (and the fact he’s already worth a few marbles!). x
He told me to text today when i can. He’s off work this week. So let’s see if he puts any more marbles in the jar today. 😊
Oh lord, this is so exciting, even I get nervous for you, sort of, even if I am not the one going on a date haha. But I am sure it will be totally fine, whatever happens. Just be safe, but have fun and go along with your own feelings and where they lead you. I am not worried about you actually cause you have great observation skills now, so you would be able to see if there should be any red flags. I am so glad you are moving forward 😊
http://thoughtcatalog.com/chelsea-fagan/2012/09/32-signs-youre-dating-a-keeper/
If nothing else, this is a feel-good read 😉 Wishing you magic and bubbles and joy on your latest adventure. Hugz!
Oh the funny (now) stories i’ve collected with my online dating experience. One man wanted to look into my eyes for 3 full minutes w/o a word and then kiss for 1 minute before we began getting better acquainted. I did, we did and i got a Dear Jane, it’s not you, it’s me shortly afterwards.
?? That was it. This not only was original, it was a first. Somehow I got past the initial “WTF” moment & I listened. He thought i would hang up and in the ensuing silence Beall stated that he hadn’t prepared anything past saying this. This was a little weird. AWKWARD comes to mind. Still i was intact and objective enough to acknowledge that we’d gone as far as he wanted to and that didn’t change me one iota. Better now than …
Then there was Beall (yes, Be All) who was not who he said he was, but of course i didn’t know this at first. We tried something new and it was fun. When i shared that most of my online dates didn’t make it to a 2nd date, Beall suggested that we view this as our last date and see how it went from there. Viola, just like that the worry and anxiety lifted and we had a wonderful time. We went out a couple more times and this theory worked each time. And then, unexpectedly, Beall called me after our 3rd date and said he couldn’t date me further due to some spots he saw on my forehead.
As it turns out I was just angry ‘nuf by B’s rejection to visit my dermatologist about a concern I had NOT on my forehead but on my arm which turned out to be cancer.
I have ignored the urge to contact him and say thank you. He doesn’t deserve it. Instead I choose to think that the Universe/Source used him for my good in this special way.
This is 2016 and my mantra is I’m a committed, loving, dedicated global entrepreneur. I think this says it all 😉 Hugs & here’s one from Marley to Maggie. xo
Hope Maggie comes round nicely in the next three or four days.xx
Actually by the time I left for work she was purring snd happy to see me. 😊 so happy she’s ok.
Oh I know the feeling ~ though in a doggie sense. Delighted she’s purring again.