My book club is reading Brene Brown’s The Gifts of Imperfection this month. It’s a quick read, and kind of sets the basis for her next two books, Daring Greatly and Rising Strong, which for me had a huge impact on my life. The quote above was in the book, and I read it last night.
Isn’t this true? I could go on, about people who never let their light shine, people who want the external light to make them become beautiful, people who don’t believe they even have a light. I have known these people. But lately, I feel like that has been me.
My light hasn’t been shining lately, from within. I have been angry, hurt, disappointed, betrayed by the actions of others. I read this quote and realized I need to stop. I need to cut the cords (again) that connect me that way. It’s not the kind of energy I generally like to carry around with me.
Everyone has their own journey, and I know mine doesn’t include constant unhappiness any longer. No one can be in a constant state of happiness, but I can get back to my overall normal state of being happy, being grateful for all my blessings, of forgiving and letting go, of seeking the light, not the darkness, and it’s the light within me that I want to pull the layers of darkness off of.
My lesson at the moment, is that when people behave in ways that dim my light, to walk away from them. To let them go. There are so many people who are innately unhappy. I feel for them. I have had an overabundance of empathy for them, and tried to help them find their way out of the dark.
It’s not my job. Not to be cold, but to be real, to acknowledge that everyone has their own journey, and I can’t over-invest myself in trying to help those who are determined to live in darkness. Everyone has a light buried somewhere in there. They can deny it, they can cover it up, it still burns. The fact that I could see it and want to see it shine, doesn’t make it my job to uncover it.
Everyone has autonomy over their journey. We can’t know what anyone’s soul’s journey is, and there is always free will added to the mix. Everyone has their karmic lessons to learn, and everyone has the choice to learn them or not.
It’s not my job to teach them. It’s my job to learn my own lessons, and let the light within me radiate out. If I am to teach them, let it be by example. Rumi says “The wound is where the light enters you.” Leonard Cohen says, “There is a crack in everything. That’s how the light gets in.” I think I’ve been wounded again recently, that cracks have been reopened. But I hope now, that enough light has gotten in, that I can continue my journey back to source. I wish those well, who still cover their light. My journey takes me away from them, from that sadness and pain.
As usual, my prayer is that the Universe work it all out for the highest good of all. Love and light to all.