Wish I Could Stay

I did my morning meditation as the sun broke through clouds

left over from yesterdays rain.

I sat in peace, quieted my mind

Of all the things I have to do today,

and want to have happen today,

And just let myself be.

When the meditation was over,

And I came back to this physical world

And opened my eyes,

I saw the lush green woods bordering my back yard.

I saw the sun in a hazy blue sky streaked with gray clouds.

I felt a cool early morning breeze across my shoulders,

Fills my head with the peaceful scent of the lavender from my herb garden.

All I felt was love

And gratitude.

Be here now,

The sages urge.

This morning,

I am here now.

And it’s a lovely place to be.

Would that I could figure out

How to stay here.

Peaceful Struggle

There’s still an inner struggle going on, but it’s gone peaceful.  No demands for answers, just sitting with it, and knowing the answers will come.   He always says to me, “Let it be, D.  Let it be. There will be an answer.”  For some reason I believe him this time.  Not going to worry about being able to deal with the answer.  Trust the universe to conspire in my behalf, so even if it doesn’t look like the answer I want, it will be the answer I need.

He’s a smart man.