I have discovered a secret to sleeping well, I think. I suppose it’s not a secret, and well-known by people more enlightened than me. I’m not, historically a good sleeper. I used to be, when I was much younger, until I spent years in an abusive marriage. Being hypervigilant every minute is not good for sleep.
The last few nights I’ve had trouble getting to sleep, or staying asleep. I’ve resorted to a low dose Ambien a couple times, because I have to have at least 5 hours of sleep to be functional at work for 9 hours. 6 or 7 is better, but 5 is the minimum. I don’t like doing that, though, and don’t want it to be the habit it was for 6 months, when I had carpal tunnel, and after, when S did his thing to blow my world apart.
Last night, when I shut my light off, I snuggled under my comforter, and began to recite a list of things I was grateful for. Actually saying, thank you thank you for things like, my warm bed. My warm house. Food in my pantry. My son in his space. My upcoming trip to Florida. My sweet cat. The ability to pay for the muffler that I just had put on the car. My friends. That I have two wonderful sisters. That I had such loving parents.
On and on.
And I slept well, and easily. When I woke at 12:45, I did the same thing, and fell back to sleep easily. Same when I woke around 3:30
Another benefit was that I woke this morning in a good mood. I actually woke in a state of happiness, and that’s been a long time coming. It’s so lovely to wake up and look forward to the day, not to wish I could just stay under the covers for 3 more hours.
Tonight I have gongs again. Gongs and crystal bowls and drums and bells, I am looking so forward to it. Always. It always seems like perfect timing. Such a good place, a good way, to let go of anything that no longer serves. If you follow my blog, you know I have plenty of that!
So here’s to letting go of the stuff that keeps us up, and being grateful for the things that make our lives beautiful! Love and light, all.