We went to Newport RI today.  It’s one of my favorite places.  K had not been for many many years, and she has a little trouble walking at the moment because she has tendonitis in her achilles tendon, so we took the trolley tour through the town.  It went by all the mansions, and Fort Adams, all the beautiful beaches there, the church where JFK and Jackie were married, the estate where she grew up.  It was interesting and a lovely day.

I was a little embarrassed that because I had been sitting outside in the sea breeze, and sun, when I got on the trolley and the driver began his talk I could barely keep my eyes open.  I hated to think I was being rude, but I was so relaxed being by the water all day, i couldn’t help it.

We decided to go home by a different route because it was fairly early, so I suggested I drive home via Mystic Seaport, just so she could see it, not really go in because it’s expensive to get in, and it was already 5, but at least see the tall ships at the piers, and get a feel for it.  It’s the biggest tourist attraction in our state.  Since we hadn’t done any shopping, we stopped at the Seaport Store, a gift shop and book store.  It’s a pretty neat little shop.  I’d been before a number of times.  Years ago, I went for a book signing with Walter Cronkite, and have been a few times since.  S liked that store and took me there more than once.  He actually bought me a lovely book there on wire-wrapping sea glass.  And a Christmas gift of my prism light.

K bought some things there, we both bought handmade fudge, lol.  We both enjoyed the store, and then headed on home, where we sat on my deck and had a nice quiet dinner, chatted about old times, until it got too chilly and went in to watch tv.

It was a really nice day.  It’s been really nice to spend time with such a good old friend.  Calming.  She reminds me who I always was, who I am, just hanging out.

I had a showing on the house today, and the client was somewhat favorable toward it.  So that was good.  They said the house was a little worn.  Well..it’s 30 years old, it’s not going to look new but it looks good.  They said the price was too high, I said, well of course.  That’s their job.  They loved my living room with hardwood floors and vaulted ceilings and skylights.  So who knows?  It’s my best review yet.

Looking forward to getting an offer one of these days and getting my son and myself resettled.  Very ready, even though it’s a little easier to stay here when the weather is nice like the last few days have been.  If I could just get out of working.

Love and light.

Sitting outside on the deck this morning. First time this year. It’s so nice to have the leaves back on the trees, and listen to the birds. Yesterday we saw a bluebird out here, just hanging out in my yard. They are so pretty, with their orangish breast, and blue blue wings.

My friend got here yesterday, I will call her K. We sat out here and talked and talked. She wanted to sit in the sun, not under the umbrella. A girl after my own heart, lol. TK he temps got very warm yesterday, finally. It was like summer. Shorts and flipflops. At one point K looked at me and said, “Can you believe this. 50 years later, here we are?” And OMG, it is such a blessing to have people who have known me my whole life. And who I have known that long. She and I met in orchestra in 7^th grade. She played flute, I played viola. We remained friends, good friends, through jr high (now called middle school) and high school and even when we went to college we would visit each other andstay in touch. Then we lost each other, as I did all my peeps from back then, because my ex didn’t want me to have anyone but him in my life, he isolated me, found fault with all of them. But K found me about 10 years ago, and we found out we lived fairly close to each other.

We went to a gong bath last night. I think I did some important letting go, we will see, as the days go on. K thinks I have not yet let him go completely, and I agreed. It is because of the crazy chaotic attempts at communication last week. I have to get back to where I was before that all started. He has so far, honored my request not to contact me, for which I am grateful. Saying the Ho’oponopono for him.

K really enjoyed the gong bath, and while she is not as alternative as me, she is enough that she enjoyed it. There was a woman there who does “toning” and toned during the gong bath. It’s like singing but no words, and free form. It was lovely, but it startled me because I was in such a deep meditation, and there are not normally any human voices there. I liked the toning, but I think I would like it separate from the gongs, just because I always go with so much intention.

Today we’re going to the plant place, Logees, and I’m going to give her a short tour of my town, show her the house where I used to live for 30 years on the lake. Hope I don’t run into my ex, but if I do, I’ll give him the cassette tapes which are still in my car.

And tomorrow Newport, one of my favorite places.

It’s been wonderful to be away from work, feeling out what retirement would be like. Sitting out on the deck, having coffee, eating one of the homemade biscotti she brought me.

My stomach issue is much better. Not completely gone, but I’ve been able to eat whatever I want, though I am still careful. Not taking that one med, and my sugar has been very normal, which is such a blessing.

It’s time to get this day underway. Love and light, all.

This morning I’m luxuriating in not having to go to work, and in having a good night’s sleep without having to take an Ambien.  Sitting with WP a bit longer, reading a few blogs.  Having coffee… and praying I don’t regret it.

I think my friend will be here around noon.  I have to run some errands this morning.  Need to get a spark plug for my lawn mower and  hope that’s the problem.  I will probably also get something to put in the gas, I will have to ask when I go to the auto parts store.  I thought I put stabilizer in it when I stopped using it last fall but maybe not.  But I can’t afford to keep paying for my lawn to be mowed.

Sometimes it just sucks to be alone.

Have to get to the grocery store.  Have chicken soup started, and need to finish it.  Also thinking I’ll make a pot roast, in my crock pot.  Then we’ll have decent left overs for the weekend.

Might hit 80 today, I’m pretty psyched about that.  Flip-flop weather.  Shorts.  I might run to the garden center and get some flowers to put around the house.  No showings all week except the one.  I’m so bummed.  I just need to be out of here.

I am excited to see my friend, and all the plans I have.  Really really looking forward to a gong bath tonight, it has been a stressful week, physically and emotionally.  I have a lot of things I’d like to let go of.  Feel like I’ve been letting go of it forever.  Maybe one day it will be gone.  Sometimes I wonder how someone I’ve known 2 years could have imprinted my psyche the way he did.

So I was sitting here, on my couch typing this, and I see this bug right next to me suddenly on the couch.

I jumped up!  and took a pic and then scooped it into a paper towel and flushed it down the toilet.  I have no idea what it is!  But it freaked me out.  And then, you know, you feel stupid, to be afraid of this bug which is 1/1,000,000 of my size, lol.  Still…..

Maybe it was a sign, lol.  That I should get my butt off the couch and get busy.  So I will.

Love and light all….S

I’m way too tired tonight.  Phone will be on silent and I’ll be in bed shortly.  Not taking any chances of being awakened.

The dr.thinks that my body has decided it no longer will tolerate metformin, one of the mainstays of diabetes drugs.  I’ve been taking it for 13 years, but it is known for causing what I’ve had for a month.  And even though I’ve cut it in half, my body doesn’t want any.  So she gave me something to stop the immediate problem, and told me to stop the med, and adjust my other meds.  I’m praying I’ll be ok tomorrow.

Kind of rough day, with no sleep.  When I get tired, I go there….where I should not, and don’t want to.  But still, I only go in my day dream, and when I come to, I know better.  I need to be in Florida, where I’ll be so distracted it won’t happen any more.  Besides, I think the ONE is waiting there for me.

Love and light, see ya on the flip sides.

I was up most of the night.  Stomach issue got way worse last night.  On top of that I heard in a very indirect way from S, who probably with no ill intent, upset me.  Too much stress for me to take right now.

I’m calling my dr back as soon as they open.  I did the stool sample thing, so gross.

I asked S not to contact me.  It is too upsetting.  No matter how benign.  It just makes me remember things better left forgotten, or buried.

My friend is coming tomorrow, I hope to God there is something they can do to alleviate this stomach thing.  I can’t even take my diabetes meds this morning.

Praying for all those in the midwest.  Hope you all stay out of harms way.  The tornadoes are just terrifying, and devastating.

Love and light, all.