It was an interesting day today. First of all, I was falling asleep on the couch all afternoon. I’ve been sleeping well too. But I think that emotionally, I got very relaxed having my old friend here for a few days. Just to hang out with someone who has known me my whole life. No pretense, no trying to one-up each other, no getting to know each other. Just catching up, reminiscing, just being myself, as I always was. It was just calming. Like being with family. She and I saw the Beatles together, we played in orchestra together, we sang together. And now, we share a lot of the same spiritual beliefs, though she is a lay minister and thus more religious than me, her religious beliefs tend to point her in the same direction that my beliefs lie.

It was just what I needed. The week had been a pretty emotional one for me, and I hadn’t felt well. I still have this stomach issue, but hopefully will find something out in the next day or two from the labs I had done.

I’ll be going to my sisters in about 3 weeks, to her VA home. We are having a memorial for my mother, and burying her remains next to my father. All the kids will be coming, and I’m so excited to see them all together, excited for my son to reconnect with his cousins. It’s my mother’s birthday while we are there, so it will be good to be all together. I miss her so much. But more than that I am so grateful for her continued presence in my life, manifesting in the ability to love unconditionally. And forgive. So grateful that I am able to do that.

I went on the dating site again this afternoon for laughs, really. Just for some male energy in my life. And I was bored and way too tired to be productive. I got hit up by 2 scammers, lol, and another guy who wasn’t a scammer but had some really out there ideas of what made sex meaningful. LOL. I didn’t talk to him too long, but it was fun. Funny. I take none of it seriously. Oh and one more from Manhattan, that wanted to make plans to meet, lol. Yeah, sure, I think I’ll just do that. Manhattan is about 115 miles from here. We’ll meet at Starbucks, lol. Coffee at 50 miles….

It cracks me up. These scammers obviously have someone write a profile that is in normal English, then when you chat with them, they can’t spell, or use proper syntax. Such a dead giveaway. One scammer, when I asked him what he did for a living, he said he was a “general commander of the armed forces in Afghanistan.” who was retiring in a few weeks, so wanted to find a woman to spend the rest of his life with. LMAO!!!! I said, “Ok, commander, you’ll have to find another victim.”

But it was fun to talk to a man. I assume they are men, lol. Maybe not. This site has been sending bi-women to me every once in a while. I have my parameters solidly set for men. I guess they are maybe running out of eligible men. The guy with the outlandish sexual ideas thought that group sex might be fun. But wasn’t interested in “meaningless” sex. LOL. I told him that group sex seemed to me to be meaningless, lol. He said, well, people enjoy it. I explained that enjoying it and finding meaning in it was not the same thing. That the guy I was seeing for 18 months surely enjoyed doing both his gf and I, but when we found out it became meaningless to us both. Sadly. Very sadly, for me. (Probably for B also, but I can’t speak for her, it’s not my story to tell.) It is what it is.

Anyway…I said, C Ya in short order. I am pretty sure the internet does not have my next passionate love in the wings. I’m just window shopping, lol.

Life is good. I miss S at times, but work through it. I know what’s best for me, and that’s to be 1500 miles away, in my little Florida bungalow, biking to the beach.

My son is taking over my family room, so he and his friends can watch Game of Thrones on the big TV in HD.  LOL.  I will have to go to bed, because despite his attempts to explain it to me, I cannot comprehend what is going on with it.  I must just be too old.

Love and light, all.