My morning meditation was disturbed by a thunderstorm this morning. A warm, soft rain had been falling, which suddenly became a thunderstorm. I had to end the mediation prematurely and make sure the open windows were not allowing the rain in the house. They were not, thank goodness. I didn’t want to have to shut the windows. It’s not hot enough to turn on the air conditioning, but if all the windows need closing, I’d have to turn it on.
S has not tried to reach me, which I’m not surprised at, but grateful for. I’ve been able to calm my emotions, stop flinching when the text alert goes off on my phone. Last night I stopped at my cousin’s house on the way home and we went for Chinese food together. Actually, she’s my ex’s cousin, but one of my best friends. I knew she was going through a hard time, and was alone last night. So it did us both good. It’s a blessing to have someone in my life here, who knew me 40 years ago, and for her too.
I still hear from my friend A, such a sweet man. He’s on the Olympic peninsula in the extreme northwest of the country, 3000 miles from here. He sent out a group text yesterday of looking across the water and being able to see Canada. He seems to be really enjoying his trip, and why not? Retired, financially stable. Like he said, he’s not flunking retirement, lol.
Hope I can find someone to hang out with this weekend, maybe go to the beach on Sunday, it’s supposed to be hot. We’re off work on Friday, so we get a lovely 3 day weekend. Looking forward to it. Might try to get my deck ready to paint.
So, life goes on, peacefully now. Putting the pieces together, but trying to make something new out of them.
I’m so glad you have peace. Thinking of you. x
Well peace was temporary because he won’t let it go and keeps going around on it. Crazy.
Oh dear…. is there anything you have left to say / resolve?
lovely post, hope all is still clam and peaceful for you…
It is. It had to run its course. It died a slow death but is over. Just couldn’t do it anymore.
I know what you mean…. I’m am still there, just can’t walk away yet but he is good, nothing upsetting has happened… yet